Being myself

2010-11-28T05:55:00.000-08:00

Why can't you EFFING leave me alone. Seriously..GO TO HELL!!! earlier pleaseee
!#$%?@$%#!!#*%?#@*%!*$*#*!#*

I'm a failure

2010-11-27T06:00:00.000-08:00

I've failed to believe that I deserve some happiness..Whenever I think that I've enjoyed today, when night falls, I would worry and fear that something bad, something that has plagued my life since young

I've failed at building friendships that will stay in people's hearts...

So what if I din fail my exams? I failed as a person.

An even darker problem after..

2010-11-14T05:23:00.000-08:00

Maybe A lvls shouldn't end..
Maybe the aftermath isn't as happy as it would seem
So many things to do..so many things might happen..
Changes, embrace it or keep it at bay

Taking stock

2010-06-12T22:52:00.000-07:00

I think its time to take stock of where my life is heading. Basically, I've got no life. Everyday I spend in school is so lifeless. Study and homework. Weekend, slack. Which makes me feel guilty. This is what education had gotten out of me -.- Weekday, reach home, then cmi and sleep. Then stayed up late to do homework. Sometimes, during weekend I wonder how I lived through my weekdays. It's going so fast...and pointless.

I just wished it would be holiday everyday, at least I can go slow and less contact with the outside world. No contact, no conflict. =)

2009-12-30T18:24:00.000-08:00

有人说：只要是钱能解决的了的问题，就不是问题。

但是，如果钱就是问题，那该怎么解决呢？

为什么我的快乐那么短占？

为什么我每天睡醒都要听到妈妈骂他没良心，把皮包里的钱都拿走了。

为什么一到晚上，我就要开始担心他又会回来发脾气。

有钱也吵，没钱也吵。

我常常吵说妈妈偏心姐姐。。前一阵子，妈妈竟说出：我知道你一向来都不喜欢我！整天发脾气骂我。你比较喜欢你爸爸嘛。

听了之后，我第一次知道什么是真正的心痛。

我怎么可能不喜欢我妈妈？？我是那种半夜做恶梦，梦到妈妈离开我会大哭的人。不能没有妈妈的人。会发脾气，因为我以为只有妈妈会不放在心上的原谅。

看来，我错了。

但是，不要误会。我一点都不喜欢爸爸。他只要在家，我就会讨厌出房门。我是可怜他。我常常会逼自己想他有什么好处。因为我不想像姐姐一样恨他。这样太可怜了

可是，我却被我最爱的妈妈误会了。那是多痛苦的事。

妈妈只看到姐姐受了伤害，那我呢？

我算幸福了，姐姐还得背负着养家的重担。靠他？难了。。

没有爸爸会比较好吗？

2009年的最后几天，过得一点都不快乐。

2010年会不一样吗？

Merry X'mas Peeps!!!

2009-12-24T18:23:00.000-08:00

Spend my x'mas eve with yj frens at joleena's house...She's a christian which gave me totally new experience. Took pics and played cards! Great. But I missed out on the sec sch gathering..
I learnt how to play slapjack which was apparently too late and I lost the game..ended playing truth or dare, but nobody could think of a question that they soooo desparate to know about me!!!hahaha

Food was nice but mostly beef which I cannot eat..so sadz the lasagna and spaghetti..but enjoyed the choco fountain and eveything else that is not beef..lol

Wanted to go home at 10pm already but due to peer pressure, delay until 10ish..haha at least I never succumb under it..

Cool party.

I didn't know being in a broken family would have such an impact on me. I just don't want to leave my mother at home alone..I dun wan her to worry about me like she did for my sis..At least I want to be home for them..That's why I want to go home early. Sorry my friends, that's the reason, ur are pressing for...

I can't help it!

2009-11-30T21:47:00.000-08:00

I must post ..if not I would feel as if I forgot to do something that I should do!

I think this is the diedie must post syndrome..oh god~ help me!

LOL. ok, I'm lame

Just wanna share my life although I know very few people actually visit my blog..

Sat: Lets start with me and my family celebrating x'mas and CNY in advance with the lian he zao bao. It's great..got to eat loads of good food..happy =)

Sun: Accompanied my mama to see doc because her throats hurts even more after all the good food..went to the library to borrow Confession of a shopaholic..but DAMN IT everything is on loan until I found the third sequel of the series! Shopaholic ties the knot! Great

Mon: Yj guys VS MI guys at yj..ok..same standard I guess..they have erm this secret weapon who doesn't need to warm up..I umpired the first singles which went *swift* and its over. 6-0

First time in my umpiring life, YJ won. Because wisarut is like the BEST player..

Nat umpired the secret weapon game with yj kevin..she called out "double serving" haha..first time..nervous..I've been through this..><

Wed: Yj girls will be playing against MI girls..oh god..my serve still sucks! I thought I would be playing singles..I guess I overestimated myself..CANNOT! I MUST DO WELL!!!

I'm so sorry...

Today..

2009-11-27T06:34:00.000-08:00

I did something meaningful =)))))

The invigilation job's pay actually is $40 per day, 2 hrs..v good hehe

I'm currently playing the mummy game on facebook..must beat yx n sy!!!!

Some pics on last day of school..haha

It's like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y

2009-11-25T23:34:00.000-08:00

I still cannot believe that my op is over and holidays starts like NOW !!!!!

Everybody was like cheering and celebrating their end of op like about 1 month ago..and after my firdt op, I've got a second..im suppose to complain n cirse like mad, but on the account that I did better the second time, I'll let it pass..haha

Mr leong apparently still remembers about the chair incident and me too..I checked all the chairs before it this time..when I went out for QnA..he was laughing a bit..n I deliberately smiled back..hee

When I was frustrated about pw..saw jojo's email I think..it's about thinking the other way round..like when you complain about doing laundry, you should be glad that you have clothes to wear..except that maybe you are a maid..n those clothes are not yours..haha

I feel that the "new member" is making my life miserable..BUT at least I have a life..lol

Currently, watching criminal minds online cause ch 5 did not continue with season 5..online quality not good..too bad..

WOOHOO~~~IT'S HOLIDAY!

oh ya..going to joleena's xmas party on 24 dec..first time sia

AND i got a job *credits to sophie* as an invigilator..most boring job ever but well paid..heh

OoOo

2009-11-23T01:24:00.000-08:00

I knida post frequently now..not that I'm v free..but i choose to ignore homework..haha

COME ON! Exams over le..still do homework???

Haiz..I thought I wouldn't say "I HATE PW" these 3 words..but because of that leech..or rather I HATE HER la..dun care..I dun wanna care for bad things are for you..I wanna care for myself..I PITY myself, can??

Watched Confession of a Shopaholic over the weekend. =D sis borrowed it to cheer me up from the sick and suayness. Great movie. gonna write a movie review for it I guess..no choice, is HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENT. crapppp.

Talking about suayness, sat I went to school to collect my racket..n i fell. GREAT isn't it?? A maid was cleaning the car RIGHT BESIDE..and somebody JUST walked past me...when I fell, I immediately turn to see if they saw..haiz

I REALLY CARE A LOT ABOUT OTHER'S OPINION.

I SHOULD CHANGE.

TAN RUI LING dun care about how people see you...hee

Always like that

2009-11-17T02:56:00.000-08:00

Everytime, I want to start with a happy note, something negative must happen and destroy my day..><

Yesterday, got back my result, I'm quite shocked but still not in ESP..that time after block test, in order to motivate myself to study hard, I say I wan to be in ESP..but I still didn't make it.

Went back hime and the headache went out of control man!!!! It's normal for the monday headache routine but after I sleep, that headache persisted and its was so painful that I couldn't sleep :'(

This morning wanted to wake up earlier to do hw, then the stomachache came..haiz..

Why I so suay!!!!!!!

No choice, so went to polyclinic loh..it was a torture to bathe and walk there sia, cannot stand straight. Argh!!!!

Go there wait for damn long then my turn..it was a totally unpleasant experience.

Haiz..the doctor kept asking me if I'm stressed or anything bothering me..but the problem is there's nothing now leh..even if is promo also not that stressed/

T.T

so sad....

Yeah~ I bathed loh..

2009-11-14T22:45:00.000-08:00

This morning, I was basking under the sun at the park..ya i sound like a croc..haha

Never mind, I basked for 20 mins and yong xiang came. =) So I played with yong xiang. At least, there's someone I can play with.hee

Then I dragged untill now then bathe..haha..

Nothing le...bye!

I feel GREAT

2009-11-14T00:29:00.000-08:00

Acutally, I'm supposed to start with a happy note..but I just realised my neighbour is leaving yj..Good for him..yj sucks but not good for me..I just lost one super nice friend in yj. T.T

Nonetheless, still wanna express my happiness! hehe
Promos over, pw over, op still havent totally yet..BUT I FEEL SO RELAXED~~~~~

Previously did our op video, it was fantastic! credits to my neighbour and sophie and ok maybe chin rong ><

I screwed up my first op. din speak well and the most embarrassing thing was..when I stood up for the Q&A..my chair went "ta.ta.ta..ta...ta...!" omg..i looked at the chair, sophie n cr looked at the chair..the audience turned and i tik the assessors heard it too.. I literally burst out laughing..mr leong, one of the assessors also laughed till his face v red and he couldn't ask the question..after that I gave up and answered the question in a slipshod manner..-.-

The after op celebration was great..went to sumo house for lunch n watched 2012 ..AWESOME! I love this kinda movie..lalala..haha

Went home alone cause I tik i stepped out of yishun for too long le..haha

Yesterday went nat's hse to play tennis n bec it's fri the 13..it rained non-stopped

Great~~~

intend to go again on mon or tues, when we are all promoted. hee =)

Thanks bei er for calling..I'm touched but i doubt u will read my blog.

2009-11-04T06:28:00.000-08:00

When I was having dinner with my sis, I was like.."haiz, u know..." then she said " I hate PW right?" nods*

Last stretch..Im yet so far from A

Ever since I left YSS, its like going down the roller coaster..strangely, it only goes on going down??

I dislike YJ, their style...I dun like everything of it..

My mistake, maybe ny will be better.

I lost hope but I found it again

2009-10-17T03:45:00.000-07:00

BECAUSE of yong xiang and shu ying, I'm here to post. hahaha

Ok! I forgot what I want to say...

oh ya..erm..yes.. today I'm happy with myself and less guilty..

Yes, because of my previous papers I start to hate myself for not doing well..I fell into deep despair..It's not going to be good. Even maths failed me this time..and some people are just out to get me..Argh..

I gave up..I went to watch inuyasha and my mvp valentine. But who knows I found hope in the drama..I see them work hard even when they know they will never win..like me when i know that all the other papers are gone case, I shouldn't give up for history! It's a chance for me. Work Hard! 不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己。 Thats what I'm counting on now..

OK about today! This morning, met up with my sec friends!!!!! all of them, so happy to be able to play despite mun yess continuous nagging of the dun n the wind..haha..kept suaning yong xiang, so sorry cnt help it esp with jorene around.haha

I know I must woek hard..so i went home, ate n help my mama mopped the rooms n bathed and studied gorbachev, reagen and some of the rest of end of cold war..it's definitely not an achievement but I'm glad I started...now I'm here! ready to watch ONE episode of my mvp valentine after yearning for it this entire afternoon..haha im crazy...

2009-09-18T04:31:00.000-07:00

I love my SECONDARY SCHOOL friends!!!!!!! All I want to say about the outing on 090909.

I love kangroo jumps!!!!!!!

GP promos over, fates sealed....

ATTENTION!

2009-08-05T03:04:00.000-07:00

Everybody!!!!

I'm having a SURGERY this friday, extracting my wisdom tooth!!!

Went to the dentist today and took x-ray. The doc said my wisdom tooth must be plucked out if not if will like swell FOREVER~ >.< She said my jaw has stopped growing after 12/13 yrs old..and the wisdon tooth is too big esp the head there..my tooth has a BIG head man!! Haha. when i went into the room, felt so nostlagic, I love dentist room..haha. the smell. the chair, everything~~Btw the doc told me I can wait but she advise me to get it over n done with coz when u stress, the swelling will hurt more! I get 5 DAYS of MC..woohoo~ so she said why not this fri then sat, sun and mon no sch mah..so wont affect school much..So..I'M GOING TO HAVE THE SURGERY DONE THIS FRIDAY!

* Today, Edmund wore shona's fencing head gear. I asked him how's the view inside. He said the view is like the kind of view zoo animals see...bars.. how sad

Why do I always envy others?

2009-07-23T03:57:00.000-07:00

Whatever I see, whatever I hear, I just feel that it's better then what I have. All those contentment is happiness & there are more people who are less fortunate kind of mentality just doesn't get into my darn head. I hate nyself for it. Why ???

Nevermind, today had frisbe game and SG potluck. Real fun!! During the game, it was like nothing else matters more than the frisbe.Just playplayplay...Potluck was nice =) Joleena din bring food when she was the one who suggested it. So we came up with a fine contributed to Potluck piggybank. haha...

Fine! I'm JEALOUS...=( Haiz..maybe it's my character. Maybe isolating myself woulld help.

It's time!

2009-07-18T22:58:00.000-07:00

It's time to update on my birthday! I know it's over for some time, but nobody visits my blog de, so update so promptly also useless. haha. Lets start with my celebration on 5 July. Coz my birthday is on Mon, then my sis hafta work so we celebrate one day earlier. My mom prepared a feast for me early in the morning. I'm so touched! Love my family!!!!! My sis bought the cake, exceptionally small but very expensive..It's actually ice=cream.

I really love my family lots!!!! <33333333>

Thanks to those who sent my bday wishes especially yj frens, becoz I din expect ur to remember..<3

And it's present time!!!! Woohoo! I love my friends!

Firstly, thanks bei,xiang n jo for the voucher and bottle holder. Especially, xiang for his singing card! I love it!

Secondly, thanks kim lei for her notepad and super kawaii files!!!

I think this one looks like kimkim

This is the dominating me..I believe bei er will agree..she suffered in my hands..haha

Kim lei said this ine look like kyoko( skip beat)..when she is in dilemna

Thirdly, thanks to min and ying for the Harry Potter Movie treat and popcorn too!! ^^

Lastly, thank you o mun, shu and chong you for the much anticipated visor and mun's card too..I can see ur sincerity in the card, thanks mun!!!!!

2009-07-10T04:51:00.000-07:00

I want to be a kind person like Jamie Sullivan

I want to have goals like Chiyo

I want to be myself...

Everything

2009-07-02T01:25:00.000-07:00

Block Tests finally over..maybe I shouldn't say is finally cause it lasted for like 3 days only..Haven get into the mood then over le 0.0

Been reading Memiors of a Geisha. Doesn't interest me at first since I took it back from the library, dunno why suddenly feel like reading it. I dont regret. Very nice =)

The author or should I say Chiyo likes describe things explicitly with expressions..affected me..

Expressions (weird ones) start to pop out in my head.

Before my last paper, history, I felt like I was running my last round for 2.4km, must chiong but dun have strength le..

When I studied for CSE, i din study minorities and just read through, thought it won't come out but it did. I felt like I want to buy this number for 4D but decided not to, and it came out as first prize.

This morning taking maths paper in hall, freaking cold. Usually I sit in front, not cold so I never bring jacket but this time, I sat quite far back, and I was so cold that my stomach shivers~ So the afternoon paper also in hall, I brought jacket and I sat at the first row, not cold at all.

It's like hanging out the clothes on a sunny day and when u left the house, it started raining. Whe you rush back to take in the clothes, guess wad? the rain stopped..

Hopes GONE~

2009-06-22T19:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, EVERYONE was talking about extension of holiday due to H1N1. ALL went to vote on Channel News Asia...Gave me tremendous hope!!! BUT guess what I saw this morning...

The following was from Channel News Asia website:

Health Minister Khaw Boon Wan has said schools will re-open and the Asian Youth Games and National Day celebrations will carry on. However, recently-returned students who have travelled to affected countries will stay at home for one week before joining their classmates when schools re-open on Monday. The Ministry of Education (MOE) will provide more details soon, added Mr Khaw.

What can I say...Now my only hope is that they will delay the block tests because recently returned students hafta stay at home..BUT yjc must have a significant amount of recently returned students then can!!! Ah!!!!!!

PLEASE~~

Anybody still remember this?

2009-06-12T20:42:00.000-07:00

I miss the past..Especially the other three on our forever group.

Featuring me as Mama, Kimlei as Papa, Beier as Son and Jieying as Daughter. Relive those moments bah!

2009-06-06T06:03:00.000-07:00

my mom with her BIG specs..haha

we were in the Canna room of Safra country club

I just came back from a birthday party!~ My childhood friend cum neighbour turned 21 le!!!!! Although, we kinda stopped contact for a few years le, she still invite my and my mommy =) Thanks Poyo! HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!

We reached there very early and we walked there...I started to sweat as usual..haiz..reached there saw a lot strangers but nvm..I was like hoping to eat then sing birthday song n go home..BUT I was wrong..I had lots of fun! I got bored after a while then all of a sudden..the music changed to " Stand by me....~~~~" Ah!!!!!!! Boys over flowers!!!!!!!

hahaha..ok then we started eating..food yumyum!! Lisa (10yrs) and her cousins came..one 17,one13 and last one 7! we were quite distant from each other..din know what to say but lisa and the smallest boy started playing w the balloons and childish me joined in..eventually all of us were playing and it turned into a balloon WAR!!! I kena ganged up by others but I fought hard! untill I sweat like I just bathed..we got tired and sat down to rest..I tik poyo friends tik we very childish..so what we enjoyed can liaoz! There were manyfunny things..lisa told me her SA2 had two pass and two fail and I was like what! Then she was so proud of herself by saying previously she had 3 fails and 1 pass..lol she say her chinese improved but english "lou you" and she asked the smallest boy how many band 4 he has..LOL. normally we ask ppl how many band one u have..then his answer was three band3 and one band4..hahaha! oh ya..that smallest boy come n sit with me and said I am smelly! how dare him! all his fault, if I never play with him, would I stink??? haha..that boy really very cute sia..all of a sudden he took out his shoe and pretended it was a phone and said "hello?"

I'm glad I could play with them..fun is simple ^^

By the way, when we got there, we realised it was a theme party- old school (that explains the big specs)-.- nvm I tik I look old school enogh..just add a hairband and I look like I'm from the 70s..haha

2009-06-04T04:25:00.000-07:00

Kim Beom

Ok..FINALLY! The interhouse is over..I also dunno why I got so nervous about it. Today I played terribly! But only tennis girls played the game, all others not in tennis who signed up din come..so is like 自己打自己人..lame right. so we played the games in a fun atmosphere..anyhow play..all my strokes dunno go where liaoz..I tapped 100% of my balls..lol

The entire interhse was a fiasco man! Initially only got three if us..so is like comfirm top three..haha! then nat joined ^^ n we played.. suaysuay, I play w joanne first, she captain sia,obviously I lost..then played w nat..n we laughed our way through..doesn't matter who won alr..we had loads of fun..now she half dead liaoz..but Im super relaxed! was very stressed due to the interhse..i noe stupid me..haha..woohoo!

2009-06-02T03:29:00.000-07:00

Lee Min Ho - his face is a piece of art man~~~

Here goes, one down, one more to go!

Today had GPP presentation..I totally forgot Mr Sng ( my tennis teacher ) is a GP teacher..I always bicker with him one and he gave the face like " ha! it's you..i'll wait n see~" Shit..I made Chin rong (phang hu) do the opening all of a sudden..Then the laptop got problem, I love technical glitch man! I was hoping they postpone but my hopes perished. Suddenly the laptop can work liaoz..so we started..our friends all very nice..write "jia you" posters behind..haha! While is my turn right, I saw at the corner of my eye, Mr Sng was like laughing at me when I stuttered a bit..=(((( Argh! Nvm, I'm going to be better next time! Watch me!

Eventually the presentation was over and we have to sit in front of a panel of teachers..With an irritating fly buzzing around us! stupid! But I think it's very beneficial to my group, I gained a lot. Most important part is, Mr Sng asked us why would women want to prostitute..then I was like " like this women can earn easy money, (and I look straight in his eyes) men have needs to satisfy." Everybody laugh! ok, I totally regret now..shit ..its like disrespect..haiz..

The second one is the tennis interhse..today I hope i din embarrass myself but on thurs the interhse, I'm sure to do so!!! ='( help!!! pls let me get it right!

By the way, boys over flower is the IN thing now!!!!!!! Lee min ho!!!! muakz

2009-05-30T01:07:00.001-07:00

Make a Smilebox greeting

2009-05-29T04:00:00.000-07:00

Kimi Raikkonen

I'm supposed to be happy but I'm sad. Why happy- because gp & chinese block tests over. Why sad- I feel that I have no friends...='(((

My chosen gp essay, " Are people today happier than in the past? To what extent is this true?" I wrote about 2 pgs. then got people tell me she wrote 4pgs and some 8.. WTH !!! it's an gp essay for goodness sake

then my chinese essay is about ur best friend going to migrate and the last time you see the person. describe ur feeling n situation. so i imagine beier migrating to america ( i should have wrote japan but nvm) then describe she always late (true) and i wait for her but very sad cause last time..then talk crap and i say i laugh at her way of saying" hi my name is beier. do you have a partner?" then she poke me with her fingernails (truetrue) n on n on...suddenly miss bei er a lot now!!!! becca where r u!!!!

2009-05-20T04:44:00.000-07:00

For all those who cannot see the light~

zoomzoomzomm~!!

2009-04-30T20:53:00.000-07:00

see my face colour? dark!

I'm posting today! Woohoo~

There is a lot of things going on for the past few weeks but I lazy to post. So I'm going to give a summary..

1) Tennis Competition

I'm reserved = not good enough to play on court =(

Wwnt to NJC, TJC and ACJC came our school to play. We suck but I'm in no position because I'm worse. Haiz..But I will be playing next year. Jia You! I hope I can improve tremendously =)

I am very dark now..Everyone in school says so, keep comparing skin colour with me. I look lke ZHONGWUYAN, you know the legendary women with about half the face dark red. I was doing linesman and I stand facing half my face in th glaring sun and the other half my fringe cover. So I ended up like her..='( I know, super ugly!!!!!

So I conclude that, I NEED A SUPER GOOD/BIG VISOR. Anyone who's reading this and is thinking about buying me my birthday present, buy a VISOR! (p.s. nice one pls) haha

2) Ms Aminah econs lecture.

Everyone in YJC will know the famous Ms Aminah. Past two week, she's been coming my tutorials to moniter. I managed to escape one tutorial because of competition.In her class, cannot look sleepy or tired. Must constantly look excited if not she will call you! So when she's in the class, we fight to answer our miss wong's question! haha. Even the "doraemon giant" did not sleep.anyway, who dares to sleep except Joshua. The moment she left, everyone immediately loosen down and miss wong got angry because we din want to answer liaoz..so bad.haha

Our class got a guy call terry, but ms animah always call her jerry. so I always say ur brother's name is tom right? haha. Yesterday during lecture, we all very tired bec everyone work through the night for PI. Terry hackcare and sleep sia..then ms animah was like.." JERRY! is that you? are u sleeping?! Answer this question now!" Everyone beside him was like " 1.5, 1.5~" Then ms aminah said if he answer wrong then everybody will have to stand. oh gosh, I dun wan stand. then EVERYONE started 1.5,1.5,1.5! Then samuel also kena because ms aminah said" samuel, you are jerry's friend right? whats the answer?" Lucky he answer correct. haha jerry!

3) Mr Nicholas Tay

He's the teacher who gave me the conduct card. He teaches me history and CSE. I see him frequently. Sian sia! n I tik the feeling is mutual. Anyway, he never called my name before sia..he will just look or sometimes stare at you for the answer or ask u to COMMENT. I thoug he din know my name coz he got a lot classes. Yesterday, he was walking around the class to check what we've written and he said, " Ruiling" I was shocked sia. I looked up at him and said" huh? you know my name?" He was speechless and gave me the look like he wanted to throw a table at me. He said how can he not know my name. My name is everywhere. ON assignments, result slips, books etc. He said he is trying very hard to convince himself he is teaching a bunch of jc students not primary schhol kids, then he added on to say, evern primary schhol kids will know that their teacher know their names. HAHAHA. I thought he never notice my presence mah..so dunno my name loh..damn funny and my face turned red sia.

Yong Xiang is the BEST guy EVER!

2009-04-10T03:41:00.000-07:00

Today, very happy to see xiang, jo, and jorene!!! We took pictures which mostly are with yong xiang now..some funny things happened too..jojo n xiang kept saying their cheer.."fight you! fight you!" sound wrong right? haha saw brenda n erm..im still not sure jo's brother what name..haha=) Then when yong xiang wanted to send me pics, i suggested add him as my device then he was searching for my name in the bluetooth list. I was like " My name is derh~" many times but he cannot find. Then I saw momo on his list..I was very surprisef. " EH! GOT PPL USE MOMO! MOMO IS THE DRAMA TOGETHER...." and then I realise..i just changed my name recently to ( you know) MOMO. hahahahahaha!!!! N yong xiang was telling me how u can get stat shock by walking on the mat n then touch the underside of the escalater metal..made me scared n din dare to touch..when i finally dare to..nth happen~ maybe is my uneven shoe. Afterwards we dunno go which shop, i think is kiddy palace then got this figure doing the leaping action. jojo n xiang were imitating it and see who last longer.lol yong xiang also trying to overcome his fears of being grabbed and I helpped him today..REALLY! I HELPPED him haha! tml meeting them again to go lib! yeah! frens rock!

it's my HOLIDAY !!!!!!

2009-03-17T23:50:00.000-07:00

It's officially my holiday! Super happy although I should be super happy four days ago but because of the stupid maths test or should I say exam..I was very stressed but now that it's over, I'm very relaxed and happy! Yesterday know about the nee soon east cc blood donation drive! I was excited because I am 16 le, can finally donate my blood to save people. woohoo~ Then my mama has to something to spoil my mood..She said she n my sis got thalassemia minor so I should have.Thalassemia is something (I think) my haemoglobin produced is reduced or deficient. I went to search the Health Science Authority and it says the if I suffer this disease I cannot donate whole blood, only plasma or platelets...T.T I dun care! I'm still going on 18 April with shushu n xiangxiang..I'll just tell them my condition n see if they allow me to donate..plsplspls..i want to donate =(

Celebrating Values Day

2009-03-14T04:15:00.000-07:00

Is FINALLY over!!!!!! Woohoo! =)

Yes, I'm very happy that it's over but now I'm starting to worry about next year CVD and how troublesome it's gonna be..haiz~

Today, I saw a lot of my friends! That's the happiest thing! I saw eleanor! 4 years never see her le..when I saw her, I ran over and jump up n down! she was like.." err..who are you" T_T But she still recognise me la~(* ^-^ *) Chat for a few seconds then went back to find my classmates to take picture and make into a badge..the quality not very good but serves as a very good memorial.. I also saw lin shan. jiajin, li pin and jian xin..At first, couldn't recognise him coz he dye his hair like orange-brown..he said he actually wanted to come yjc but heard that is very stress so he go sp instead..ya loh..yj super stress!

Jorene and si min were there too..so we got people in peiying from A to E..haha! I'm no longer the last~

Candid shot of jorene:

very natural right~ except that it's a little blur

Nth much to say le lah..mon still got impt maths test...tues also got chinese test..the school really knows how to plan their activities! yeah~(sarcasm)

I bought my tennis racket..

2009-03-06T23:11:00.001-08:00

Just now go northpoint with my mama to buy racket..Initially, they say can loan so I never buy but THAT teacher being not very committed never come yesterday training so I have to keep borrowing other's racket..which is not very nice..AND also initially my sis promise to buy me a racket but now she say I should use my own money..and I told her you pay for me as a birthday gift and she said she will give $50 and mama will fork out $30..and then she said something which I din expect her to say..yes, she is giving quite a substantial amt of allowance to mama but how she say get the $50 from mama because mama money = her money..I thought, unlike me, she is generous to her family..everyone has a dark side, I guess. but mama n papa spent so much more on her raising her up..sad =(

I LOVE BINTAN !

2009-03-02T02:20:00.000-08:00

I'm the bee caretakers..haha! cause after the ascend..I'm sweating like hell so I use to the towel to wipe then my hair messy so I wear back my hat and then they suggest taking pictures..so there it is..bee caretakers

this pic was when we girls were posing for the the shot and shi xuan goes " 1, 2 ,3!" and he turns to take pic of himself! 自恋鬼！

I'm the red shirt one

Okay, I'm back from bintan on sun and I seriously miss bintan now!!!!! I simply love bintan man..I see things I don't get to see in Singapore..Their sky seemed endless..so beautiful unlike in Singapore, you only get to see 'restricted' skies because of all the tall buildings..The night sky is even better..the first time in my life, I've seen so many stars all in peculiar formations..I went to the beach too..the sea and sky combine at the horizon there..OMG~ although they don't have to state of the arts equipments, but it's still like a paradise to me!

I love their bus too..no air con one..fresh air! ( except for the part when we are behind another bus while they are starting the engine ) haha! they don't have traffic lights so the driver can change lane to the opposite path whenever they want..but I feel safe in their hands.don't know why~ The bus also very jerky and I'm super surprised I din feel motion sickness surfacing! maybe because of the fresh air..I even ate my lunch on the bus while I go up n down n left n right..when we first got on the bus..the flies inside are outnumbered by mosquitoes sia..lucky, I wore track pants.haha!

When we reached Gunung Bintan ( the mountain we climbing ) din want to go down, cause very sleepy..then Jermyn was like.." eh..the mosquitoes buffet enough liao..faster go off la! " haha =) Got off and I went to the back of the line..and ms ng was like " Ruiling..please dun stand at the back..go in front " Why girls cannot stand at the back? I just nod and continue standing where I am..then is pris turn to ask me go in front and I kept saying ok with no actions..haha! They ms ng say sam must be the last person so I went in front of him and became second last..lol~ I thought the mountain not very high but I was very wrong loh..we took 2 hours to reach the summit n throughout I was like..why I cannot see the top one arh..the thighs really ache loh..the camp guide list say need gloves and I thought got so serious meh? but when I see how steep the mountain is , I'm so glad I brought my gloves..if not sure kena rope burn..eventually I persevered to the summit with sam rooting for me behind..but I very happy I managed to get up there with minimal help although I fell once and got this big bruise on my knee area there..haha. my track pants are water proof..then all my sweat trapped inside..omg! haiz~

Then hafta descend again..spend another hour n more...when going down..I climbed with Carine and throughout Guan chiap was helping her..holding her hand..haha=) he's like.." wait wait..i change hand " Then there 's a few rocks quite slippery and I was climbing that myself..n they guys were " eh..go help ruiling leh.." and I said " aiya..by the time ur come..I already pass the rocks le" and guan chiap say.." ruiling 女强人 mah.." After the descent, my right shoe has been certified dead..sole came off, quite difficult to walk..so to prevent delaying my group I walk ahead fast..I climbed all the way down the stairs then they say want take pic..I was like" can take another time..好不容易爬下来了" they they say dun like that..and guan chiap said " wah...女强人也会累的 meh.." of course la! 女强人 also 人 mah! lol took the bus back and everyone's asleep because of the jerky movements and the tiredness because of the hike..

Day 2 : In the morning, I enjoyed the shade near the resort cause the others were doing dragon boating and James ( our instructor ) singled me out and said I scared of water right? Then I say ok loh..actually, if he forgot then I can go with them..cause they all nv go into the water entirely mah..slept for a while cause din sleep well first night.. talking about the girls quarter..wah lao eh! the bathing area is 开放式 de loh..only a few cubicles which cannot

let all use de mah..literally 坦然相见 and 回归大自然 loh..a lot of us din dare take off so I just shampoo my hair and shower my body with clothes on..then quickly go change..yuck..now i realise my bathroom is how clean le~ seriously brought out of my comfort zone..but I still love the camp! After that go lunch and play team building games! totally enjoyed =))))) Day 2 ..I cannot tahan not having a proper bath so I waited for abt an hour to bath in the cubicles which wasn't much better la..smelly..din feel like eating dinner after that..Then got the candlelight walk..sound romantic right? but it is not..just 5 ppl holding hands and walk a short path down the road with one candle and we not allowed to converse which nobody cares lah..Get to know Matthew. =) After that..watched the nicks story: no arms, no legs, no worries video again but different section I guessed..very sleepy so din pay much attention.Day 2 slept better..

Day 3: Take the bus to the villagers' area to do cip by helping them paint the houses..their house really very basic only and is like a wooden shack with LOTS of ants..I wonder how they live happily there..there were cute puppies and kittens there~=) We were painting and the elder child came back and he was like " eh..wad is this.." and he very quickly put his hand on the paint and we all was..no!!!! but too late le..haha..the mother quickly pull him in the house and help wipe the paint away..if is singapore kid..confirm very 心疼 and quickly go use clean water n tiner to clean off the paint from precious hand..After that go wash hands..took water from their well and the water I heard was their drinking n washing water and I see the water not very clean leh..singapore got clean water supplied, we really very fortunate..

After that take the boat to the mangrove area..the engine damn noisy and very polluting also..
Before that..our principal came together with the indonesia tv crew sia...then video her saying sth and we have to stand behind her with the saplings as background..james was asking me to continue walking but stopped by another instructor and I was like no where to go..haha. so fake loh..mdm koh gg around to ask we need sapling a not when we obviously need with the man filming behind..Anyway, I'm wearing my dead shoe cause I've decided to use it one more time b4 throwing it away..the mangrove area de water very clear and refreshing..we wore the life jackets and the water level was around my waistline bah and too deep cnt use hand to dig hole to put the sapling so we use shoe and I can only rely on my left shoe..haha..kept feeling that the right show coming off..haha! After a while have to go back cause we behind schedule? In order to climb up the boat, we have to stand on others thigh and I'm very unwilling cause I know I very heavy.but still have to la~travel back to resort again on the lovely bus. Then play amazing race with wet clothes on..on the bus..another instructor was like..."eh, i can see ur toes..ur shoe talking sia.." Damn lame right..i guess u have to be lame to be instructor..haha no offence. our instructor is only 4 yrs older than us..in poly now.

That day,anyhow bath cause next day going back home le so din care much..had gala dinner and our wave being the earliest get to use the table! After that campfire..which ended abruptly because of the sudden downpour..cryz. we cnt sleep in tents so packed all our belongings to sleep in resort..u tik gd arh? of coz not! dunno how many of us have to use in one room, although got air con but the weather sop cold..air con only makes it more unbearable..At night..stomachache and super cold..so around 3 am go lobby to use toilet..haha!I was like blur blur then we i go out of toilet.the male instructors were changing and he was like " eh!" and quickly turn away while he continue to tie his pants and I was.." er..." and I also quickly turn to wash hands..nowadays, I keep entering this kind of situation sia~ After I went up and took off nmy shoes and abt to enter..I realise sth..I left my torchlight in the toilet..that torchlight is not mine so I quickly rush down just in time to stop the instructor to go in n bath..phew! finally..can go back sleep and wake up by 5am..

Day 4: Heard from others that a lot ppl got diarrha because of the gala dinner..lol but I tik is because 3 days nv shit so accumulated a lot n cnt hold le..haha! cleaned our quarters and took the bus to ferry terminal and ferried back to Singapore =( I dun want come back...I miss the skies and stars!

I think u guys will take half an hour to finish reading..in all..the camp was unexpected fun! Still got lots more fun things but cnt all write..but its all in my head forever~

Basically

2009-02-20T01:42:00.000-08:00

By friday, I've already forgotten what happenned the entire week le...Let me think.
I became an official loner after I got to my subject group.lol. I choose not to talk and I feel that maybe it's going to help me focus..not bad~

Going bintan camp next week, hope i enjoy it

I had my first tennis training on wednesday..ran two rounds and I had aches until now..have to buy racket and I realise we must pay for the coach..OMG! If it's really so, I might have to change to squash..='(

My gp teacher is nice, maths is very boring, cse n history are interesting and econs very scary

I went to wrong chinese class for my first lesson..or to be exact, I chose to go chin won's class..Cannot find my name, so I anyhow go..lol Chin won's teacher very funny and nice loh..I want to be in her class!

Oh ya..I went into boys toilet..After lesson, I'm like very urgent le but stupid me cannot toilet so I asked chin won and she took me to boys toilet..Being very urgent, I din go see properly and I went in..It's like those drama sia..I went in. two guys inside..One using the cubicle while the other waits..the waiting one turned around and I gave that omg face and left immediately..We laughed our way back to chinese class..I still din go toilet in the end because it all came out from the sweat..haha! ps..I saw nth!

I din know I could get used to loneliness

2009-02-11T01:23:00.000-08:00

Haiz~ Mama is sick, sun night went with her go see doctor. I thought nothing serious..Then everyday come back school very tired, so din really go care for her..Today, she still not feeling well. I failed my duty as a daughter...She will be going doctors again tml, I guess. Sis mon also got 2 days mc..Everyone sick.

This week is said to be honeymoon for us...but I still feel so lonely..I'm in wrong class la! I go different classes with my classmate..so distant~ Today spent more time with jiamin's class instead..113. I saw ruzzie and she really look like suzzie..haha. China studies is the only class I enjoyed..It's basically like history but focuses on China.

如果我们之间有1000步的距离, 你只要跨出第1步, 我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步　　　　

第二句　　　　

通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人, 才是真正爱你的人　　　

第三句　　　　

付出真心, 才会得到真心, 却也可能伤得彻底. 保持距离, 就能保护自己, 却也注定永远寂寞　　　　

第四句　　　　

有时候, 不是对方不在乎你, 而是你把对方看得太重　　　　

第五句　　　　

朋友就是把你看透了, 还能喜欢你的人　　　　

第六句　　　　

就算是believe, 中间也藏了一个lie　　　　

第七句　　　　

真正的好朋友, 并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题, 而是在一起, 就算不说话, 也不会感到尴尬　　　　

第八句　　　　

没有一百分的另一半,只有五十分的两个人　　　　

第九句　　　　

为你的难过而快乐的, 是敌人　　　　
为你的快乐而快乐的, 是朋友　　　　
为你的难过而难过的, 就是那些　该放进心里的人　　　　

第十句　　　　

冷漠, 有时候并不是无情, 只是一种避免被伤害的工具

Being cold towards others doesn't mean I'm heartless. It is just my way to protect myself...

Orientation Week

2009-02-06T19:06:00.000-08:00

HAIZ~ I think it's gonna be long post. Those don't want read can move to the links part...

First, I want to congratulate myself for surviving this week! Although, I didn't go school on Thursday.

Day One: I became the quiet and not social type. Yvonne approached me for my name and school. I answered and conversation stopped. Haiz~ I don't know why I don't want to continue the casual chat also..Priscilla and Iffah very enthusiastic and everyone, expect me and some emo guys, got very chatty..Played games and I don't like playing the games..Waiting for time to pass while I avoided being called out to participate in the games. Finally, 5.30 pm..I have a splitting headache and I get to go home..Phew~

Day Two: Made class flag and I learn a little origami from Ansel.Cheer again~ Learnt couple dance and I enjoyed that..But my partner and I both got sweaty palms so it's a little uncomfortable..Cheer cheer and cheer.. got a lot different cheers la..Got one is still the jiaxiang mian idea..so it's like 1 0 1 0 1 0 ..then we say 4 4 4...My class is 104 mah.. That day no headache but very tired..Sis said I stayed at home too much le..so not used to moving around in the sun too much..

Day Three: Morning, have to choose subjects..I very happy cause no need to go out in the sun and cheer! Quiet times..I actually sat in one corner alone reading my book! LOL so not Ruiling style..I think Gena came on the day..She appealed from PJ..I talked to her quite a lot lah cause I know the feeling of being alone on first day..so I tried to help her along..Played games again and I managed to avoid..But the OGLs found out I kept avoiding and keep asking me to participate more~Had headache again around noon and I seriously want to go home!

Day Four: I skipped school..Too tired le..Got chided by sis for leaving bad impression for the teacher..haiz~~~

Day Five: Jessie joined us and I talked to her too..Played catching in the track n field area..Yes..You didn't see wrongly, is catching..But not the conventional one..got improvised..I almost fell because shoes too loose..Then move on play games and my class got several very good in playing sudoku sia..Im forced to stand and watch even when I don't know anything about the game..Cause MUST participate and BOND mah! Lunched and Carine joined us from PJ I guessed and she also from Peiying. So my class now got people from Class 6A to 6d. Carine from EM1 6A, Guan Chiap from 6B , Pin dong from 6C and me from 6D..LOL
Continue games and kena scolding from OGls for not being enthusiastic and never bond as a class..Very typical de loh..Last day must scold. Play basketball and handball..This time I cannot avoid liaoz..if not pinpoint me and say I never participate..I went up last after baking in the sun..played basketball and suddenly all boys there and me one girl..haiZ~ They run super fast and I have to run around the two courts just to catch up..At least, I caught the ball once! Terrible headache after the game..must be the sun la! Then I think is go back hall to showcase our skit an d cheers stuff..By the time we can bbq le, I seriously cannot take the headache already..felt like puking..Luckily never eat so nth to puke..I just sat with heads down at one corner..I told Mrs Szetoh I not feeling well but I don't think she believe me le cause thrus I absence without mc mah..Then my classmates began coming over to ask if I'm alright and I have to keep waking up to tell them I'm ok..I really appreciate them caring for me~ OGLs keep forcing me to eat and I told them already I feel like puking, but they just keep forcing..SQ also keep forcing to go over chairs there to sit but I don't want to move le..I just want ppl to leave me alone and let me rest a while..haiz~ Then another teacher came and ask if Im alright. I said Im ok and he asked if anyone's at home..My mama told me she would be home late today so I said no..and he and SQ give that surprise look like I poor thing like tt..I too unwell to explain that my mama has gone to help my uncle with his wedding stuff so will be late le..haiz. Then Mrs Szetoh busy talking to parents and cannot interrupt so I waited until 8,30pm then can go..On the way out,,I msg my mama to ask her where she is...and the hp strap snapped..and my precious phone is like pang on the floor! OMG! How unlucky can I be? Then other OGLS walked in and stopped me.I was like " oh no..not now..I want puke le sia.." Ask my class and name to confirm I got permission to leave early..Who say YJ not strict de? Strict like hell loh..luckily I didn't sneak out which I really wanted before..Eventually I reached home to see my mama sitting there , gossiping on the phone..Haiz~ I didn't ask her why she never reply and head to bed immediately..Woke up at 11pm, feeling better..Go wash up and back to bed...

Introducing some friends:

Iffah - she is Singaporean but lives in JB..Yes..she wakes up at 4am and leaves by 5 to catch the bus to come Singapore..All this while, she can maintain cheerful and enthusiastic. I really admired her character!

Rachael- She took music in o levels and now I think she taking H3 music! She played some Jay chou's songs and she's really great at it man!

Pin dong- from my primary school and he is really lame and funny..and he wants join tennis ans I want too..so got common subject..haha

My class is great and everyone is willing to try and I feel like a coward when everyone is trying to play the role of the leader and lead..I just hid..Haiz~ I look down on myself =(

2009-01-30T20:21:00.001-08:00

What are we missing

2009-01-22T18:04:00.000-08:00

VIOLIONIST IN THE METRO

Three minutes went by and a middle aged man noticed there was musician playing. He slowed his pace and stopped for a few seconds and then hurried up to meet his schedule.

A minute later, the violinist received his first dollar tip: a woman threw the money in the till and without stopping continued to walk.

A few minutes later, someone leaned against the wall to listen to him, but the man looked at his watch and started to walk again. Clearly he was late for work.

The one who paid the most attention was a 3 year old boy. His mother tagged him along, hurried but the kid stopped to look at the violinist. Finally the mother pushed hard and the child continued to walk turning his head all the time. This action was repeated by several other children. All the parents, without exception, forced them to move on.

In the 45 minutes the musician played, only 6 people stopped and stayed for a while. About 20 gave him money but continued to walk their normal pace. He collected $32. When he finished playing and silence took over, no one noticed it. No one applauded, nor was there any recognition.

No one knew this but the violinist was Joshua Bell, one of the best musicians in the world. He played one of the most intricate pieces ever written,with a violin worth 3.5 million dollars.Two days before his playing in the subway, Joshua Bell sold out at a theater in Boston and the seats average $100.This is a real story. Joshua Bell playing incognito in the metro station was organized by the Washington Post as part of an social experiment about perception, taste and priorities of people.

The outlines were: in a commonplace environment at an inappropriate hour: Do we perceive beauty? Do we stop to appreciate it? Do we recognize the talent in an unexpected context?One of the possible conclusions from this experience could be:If we do not have a moment to stop and listen to one of the best musicians in the world playing the best music ever written, how many other things are we missing?

WATCH HIS UNNOTICED PERFORMANCE

I got this post from Mdm Azizah's blog..Every meaningful. Hope to share with you guys. Credits goes to Mdm Azizah! =)

I feel the festive mood!

2009-01-22T17:43:00.000-08:00

Hello everybody! Chinese New Year is just round the corner! Liven up everyone~Woohoo!

Went out with mama for breakfast. I first time eat tissue prata! Seen but never tasted it before. I din know inside no fillings de..The man came and my mama asked " Nothing inside?" The man replied " No, only sugar inside " Mama asked me want curry a not..I said no and she asked the man to bring a plate of curry ...haiz~

The wet market is so lively with so many people and new year goods in store! Yeah! Everyone is getting ready! Ntuc also very crowded. First time see so many men in there..All husbands helping their wives carrying the basket..How nice to have such considerate husband..Married so many years le..still so sweet~~

I have to keep out of people's way so I stand at the maggi place there with one carton box over there, I can place my basket on it..so I no need to bend down to get it..Yes~ my back is still stiff. But still got one lady, she has to buy the maggi on my side..so I have to give up my comfy rest place.Mama buying salmon..Then she got angry when got one auntie..take all the salmon and press here, press there..Haha! Press untill people ask here:" Auntie, you want buy a not de..Don't want then give me lah " That auntie put all the salmon down and walked away..leaving behind those slightly bruised salmon..heehee.

That's all..

我

2009-01-21T20:36:00.000-08:00

我幼稚的举动，是希望你们继续把我看成小孩子，不会在我面前有意无意地提起家里的经济状况，爸爸赌马票输了多少钱，或者是有什么我不想知道的伤心往事。

我不停地问你， ‘ 你喜欢我吗？’，‘ 爱我吗？’，‘ 疼我吗？’是因为有时候我感觉不到你对我的关怀和疼爱。

很傻吧。。哪有妈妈不爱自己的孩子？是我的心胸太狭窄了吧。。。

I don't want to go to school!

2009-01-20T19:39:00.001-08:00

The few months of indulgence at home made me lost count of what day is it le..everyday, wake up and enjoy watching drama shows and television..Don't even know is weekday or weekend. BUT my happiness has to stop on 2 Feb.NOnonO~~~

When can I ever dissolve the hatred sis had for pa?

My Ridiculous Funny Family =(

2009-01-16T05:40:00.000-08:00

Today, mama received sister's call saying papa retrieved all his money in CPF and she asked if he got give mama money for new year? The answer: NO. Later, papa called and asked if sis had received her bonus and give mama money a not? The answer: YES. Papa din know we knew he took all the money out le, because cpf board email sis..I really wonder how mama pulled through all this years with this kind of husband. I always tried to look at his good points but every time, I have a new and positive realisation of him, he totally crashed it by coming home losing his temper. Now, I understand. My life depends on whether he comes back losing his temper or not..People say you can be happy if you want but when you see your parents fight for stupid things, can you still feel unaffected and stay happy???

Vexed

2009-01-13T19:21:00.000-08:00

My L1R5 is 11 ( with bonus points ). Where should I head?
I basically don't qualify for good jcs like Nanyang or Meridian or Andersen and I don't want to squeeze myself to enter.
I'm 90% sure about yjc??
I want to be in the arts stream so I have have to take majority arts. How about H2 MATHS, H2 ECONS, H1 GENERAL STUDIES IN CHINESE, H2 PHYSICS? Two from science and two from arts?

like that still consider as arts? Help!!!!!

Hectic Day 9 Jan - Part Two

2009-01-12T00:07:00.000-08:00

Around 6pm, mama and I reached UOB Plaza One to wait for sis. We are going to celebrate mama's birthday in advance. She was busy so we waited beside the Singapore River..Many tourist and I enjoyed the breeze but mama didn't..She specially go seto de hair messy le! Haha =) We waited for half an hour until the both of us were freezing then she came down le..We walked to the restaurant and met up with her bf at the elevator. I second time see him, first time talked to him. Surprised?? The restaurant was at 33rd floor..go inside damn cold, felt like going to the toilet even more...I don't really like that type de restaurant where you are constantly looked at..forever changing your plate and refilling your tea..It's not their fault but I'm not rich or royal, why do restaurants have to do this? to give us a feeling of high class? I don't feel high class, i feel Eco-unfriendly (a lot water wasted to wash plates) and very distant from them. Can't they make it more warmly and close. But there's this guy, he wore superman de logo de belt! haha! After dinner, drive to Great World City to watch Red Cliff 2. I first time entered a car park in a car and the first thing I see on the wall is F9..lol

I also first time watch night show..haha (ps I'm e frog in the well) Red Cliff 2 is brilliant!!!!! 5 stars man! Interested in three kingdom now~~ Yong Xiang help me borrow books abt 三国演义leh..I want interesting de arh, not all words de. After the movie, 11plus le, walked outside and saw Inka from the sch house rock. She is really beautiful, beautiful calves, thighs, hair, everything..I wonder what's her age? She is wearing heels like 3 inch de loh..She seem to be avoiding attention..haiz~ celebs

Seeing her made me realise, I'm such a normal girl, with no fancy & long fingers n nails, no model legs, no beautiful skin or smooth hair..Average girl in the city. BUT so what!!!! All this beauty, glamour and fame are going to fade someday when we age...You may have enjoyed it..but most importantly, people will remember you because of the good heart.. Don't envy is what I'm trying to tell myself, being glamorous is their life, being kind is what I aim in my life.

9 Jan - Hectic day

2009-01-09T19:41:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was busy day. To make it easier to read , I divide it into two parts.

First Part : Yishun Junior College Open House

One fine day, Aimah message me asking me to go YJ open house with her. Then I say I don't want go the other 3 jcs and she said fine.I agreed =) Yesterday morning, alarm went off and I cannot wake up..too early la. 9am start le *yawn* I met Aimah at the 812 bus stop there and she wore the traditional Malay scarf around her head. First time see her wear, was a little doubtful when I saw her, don't know is her a not. haha. We went in, the ushers showed us in. Then, they say still early, not many people arrived yet so they haven't start the activities so we wandered off loh..Saw the new canteen, quite spacious but still YSS de better. Went to the library but didn't go in until we saw other outsiders also went in then we followed loh..After a while, we wandered off again and reached the chem lab..The teachers see people then very happy...show us crystals ( yj students grow one) very big is all I can say. haha! Then explained H1 and H2 stuff and contrasting subjects thing. I don't know everything about jc de mah, so I everything also asked loh..The he explain & explain and he turned to his friend and ask " 对吗？" LOL ..Our journey continued and we went into physics lab..Students there gave us demo on experiments with those apparatus that we do not have in our school. I see the " Young's double slit " want faint already..So hard to understand what phenomenon de..haiz. Jcs still got higher level de SPA..HAIZ~

Aimah's friend, Sandy came and she wants to go to the maths room so we went..The maths teacher looks like Mrs phua and talks like Mrs yeo..haha =) I just realise we cannot use the same calculator we are using now in jc, must use something that can visualise the graph for us de..Sandy went on asking while Aimah n I not interested in maths went to play their games..heehee. after that, Sandy say she gtg so I suggested we go the tennis and squash court see see but we forgot how to go le..cannot find the sign~ haha. Then again we went looking for red t-shirts ushers and wei lun appeared. He kindly brought us there and kept promoting his fencing. There are only two small squash court and I din try out because I don't feel like. More interested in tennis. Tried archery and I got 5 arrows. The third arrow hit until my elbow and turned red immediately, then I say I don't want join le la~ haha then the guy quickly explain nono, your position wrong and this type very common...my fourth arrow hit the yellow balloon when I wanted to shoot the green one.. They thought I shot my desired balloon and appalaused..haha. The tennis courts were bigger and all guys there. Wei lun went over to ask them demo..then one guy call the other guy show. and he said " show lan la...u go " haiz~ so two of them played for us to see..that same guy said something again " eh..u normally got play so mai li de meh" haizhaiz~ I asked how to hold racket one or both hands..then he say four hand..I said " huh!? " and he explained is forth hand and back hand..I seriouly don't know how to hold the racket, he teach me twice and I forgot twice...haiz...Aimah was way better than me. He show us how to serve and he was damn cool man! I wished one day I could serve like that... After that, we wanted to leave le..but wei lun enthusiastically said he wanted to show us fencing stuff...He say got three type de swords. got epee, sabra and foil. yjc is use sabre de..While he explaining, we walked past some sort of concert and he has to shout and he was standing beside me...omg! I really wanted to tell him to stop for a while but I didn't.Then Amah wanted to ask him something and she said " eh..eh! " I said his name is weilun and he turned over. He asked me how I know his name and I say " your sleeve" lol. Over the fencing there..he actually wanted his friends to demo but it was the dance club showtime, so he only show us the swords and proper attire..After that , we went home le!

Part two..next time then say la..so long le

Red Cliff is superb !!!

2009-01-05T18:53:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night watched Red Cliff & surprisingly it was very nice. Unlike those drama series, very dull n boring. The director added snippets of humor into the story and made it even enticing. The actors also handsome la~ Their war strategies were very interesting..now modern world don't know still got people so clever? The Cao Cao everything also Xiao Qiao..No wonder there is a saying "英雄难过美人关" I didn't finish the movie yesterday actually, I fell asleep not because the movie sian but I very tired le..This morning continue~ I want to watch part 2 this friday..I think is go with my mom and sis bah..not sure. Now I know why yong xiang was so crazy when he talked about the movie..Muahaha!

Anyway, I finished cleaning my room le..It's going to be Chinese New Year soon! Those busy working, dun forget to spring clean your room ah! =)

My Grassy World

2009-01-03T05:55:00.000-08:00

ATTENTION TO ALL

What I intend to say is in all sincerity and don't think I am stupid.

You don't have to pay extra attention to what I said constantly but whenever you are about to step onto grass, think about all the saliver people spat onto it, dog poo, cat poo, children urine & bird shit (Sorry, I don't mean to make it that disgusting). Surely, you wouldn't want your shoe to be in contact with those things. You might also kill several living ants. Grass is also a living thing right? We may be the "superior" living thing- human, but are we really better than them?

It's really simple..Look no further, maybe only a stone's throw away, you will definitely find the road/ pathway. Thanks a zillion!!!!

大家请注意！

下一次，当你想踩草时，请想一想草上可能有的吐痰，狗，猫和鸟屎。甚至是无辜的蚂蚁和有生命的草。不经意地找一找让人行走的道路吧。我衷心地感谢你。 =）

I hate travelling!

2009-01-03T05:46:00.000-08:00

Today..went to Bedok. MRT very cramped, I don't get to sit for an hour and more..I began sweating in that air-conditioned metal tube & felt sick..Haiz~ Anyway!

ATTENTION TO ALL WHO HAS BEEN GOING OUT ON PUBLIC TRANSPORT which I think is everyone !!! My bus and MRT fare change to ADULT RATE le!!!!!!!!!! Damn expensive.. is it the same for u guys??? Please tell me in my tag board!!!!

Ok, after I reached went to the interchange for lunch and buy CNY dress..which I was too reluctant to choose because maybe of inferiority??

I miss school..

2009-01-01T21:50:00.000-08:00

Supposedly, first day of school but I'm not in school today!! It's feels sad. I hate to admit that I will no longer go to YSS to study le..Mrs Phua continuous chanting of the chapter's keyword like " Chain Rule " ( i can't remember most of them le) and Mrs Tan : Can your understand?..Haiz, kinda weird. Cannot flip over yong xiang's pencil box, make munyee frustrated by asking her to teach me jap songs, listen to jojo teach me amath, disturbing bei er while she's trying to sleep and talk to jieying about the media entertainment stuff!!! Sobzzz =( & I dun get to see my ants move house le lah!! It just feel different from meeting outside..Now I love my school uniform. Wonder, Mrs Yeo is doing her twist and greeting her class??? Mdm Chew joke also..her sreaming of "ok!!!" What do you guys miss??

First Day !

2008-12-31T20:35:00.000-08:00

Erm..my first day of 2009 is terrifying! I don't want to talk about it..haiz..Anyway, I want talk about my new year resolution! I created my 5 Cs in life!

CHANGE

CONTENTMENT

CAN'S

COURAGE

CASH $$

I was wondering I want to make it to 7 by adding calm & cool but I decided to keep it short! Everyone, the 5 Cs apply to all I guess, strive for a better you this year! =)

Another resolution is to SLIM DOWN!! So that I fit beautifully into my CNY clothes ( if i have any) and my relatives will stop their " Aiyo..why u so fat nowadays ah? " " You look fatter le leh.." stuff. They aren't very slim either, matter-of-factly ..Hohoho! OK Enough of the complaining..Jia You!

Last Day !

2008-12-30T23:49:00.000-08:00

Today is the last day of 2008 & honestly..I did not gain a lot this year, maybe except for a litlle weight. Start off my day by a little jogging with minmin..we run 2 rounds only then damn tired liaoz..haha Then went home and we are supposed to buy my CNY clothes today..So I have to go bathe and immediately set off, coz we have to catch the shuttle-bus to the sembawang shopping centre..haiz very tired =( I dislike shopping, everyone knows and mama has to forced me to do it..of coz there got nothing that catches my eye..wear this too short..wear that look too fat..haiz..THen we moved on the sun plaza and instead of me..mama bought a new shirt.$41.30. Which I think is expensive but she say no worh~ nvm..been at home too long le..dunno outside de market..haha..in the end..i had a FRUITLESS trip...Munyee, u buy new year clothes alr?

My Christmas Turkey!

2008-12-25T18:37:00.000-08:00

My first time seeing and eating a full turkey..It's huge man! Just like the one Mr Bean had in his head when his girlfriend came for dinner on Xmas..Haha. I'm THE frog in the well. The turkey had something like a huge hot dog in it for the filling..It looks kinda awkward..OK I have a dirty mind..hehe When I took the picture, I had to keep changing position to find a ok spot..haha The Turkey bought by my sis bf..It cost $105..OMG. but since it's so huge..we can eat for days until I get sick of it..Should have ask all my friends to come n share...anyway..I begin to realise how someone close to you can affect your mood if he or she is moody..When my sis came home, I thought she would be happy but she seem kinda UNhappy..ok because just now they jam break the car and the sauce spill onto the floor and her bf not happy and so she not happy..oh ya..the sauce is so nice!!!! it's like the mash potato de brown topping..Heavenly..its nicer than the turkey..Muahaha! My sis went out almost immediately after the lunch to attend boss party..& that's our Xmas REUINION!

Know me better

2008-12-23T21:22:00.000-08:00

Things about me that everyone knew but I want to emphasize it..

#1 I don't pick strangers call when I'm outside.

#2 I don't pick friends and strangers calls when I'm at home unless it's an emergency..you can call my home number..

#3 Sometimes, I don't even reply message. I know..my phone is used for decoration..Haha ( thats what bei er always said)

#4 I don't like to go out of Yishun unless I'm asked to go out by my friends like 3 days in advance..

#5 I don't like to spend too much money. In other words, I'm super stingy

#6 I dislike shopping

#7 Do not ask me to go your house for party..It's very rare that I would agree

There's more..but I cant think of any now..u can remind me in my tagboard..If u totally agree about the above 7, please also tag at my tagboard..in other words..just tag!!!!haha

Disappointment

2008-12-23T19:02:00.000-08:00

我们五个人伸长了手臂才将树抱住。树後的两个人更聪明,更可爱，可惜你们看不见。我还听到他们在说笑话，可惜你们听不见。太多躲在世界背後的人，我们都看不见,听不见。

Sometimes, the greatest people are unseen..Quietly, they contribute without recognition

Change

2008-12-19T17:42:00.000-08:00

其实每个妈妈最美丽的时刻，并不是在这一天（母亲节），而是在为儿女辛苦的付出，陪伴他们成长的每一天。妈妈的每根白发，每一条皱纹，都是儿女成长的轨迹。不仅在这一天，我们更是要在每一天，都让妈妈看起来更有自信，更美丽。所以。。。每一天都是母亲节。- 唐门

Actually, the most beautiful moments of every mother is not on Mother's Day, but during the days they sacrifice for their children , the days they were there when their children were growing up. Every strand of white hair and wrinkle of your mother, are evidences of your existence in her life. Not only on this day, but everyday, should you make your mother look more confident and beautiful. Therefore...Everyday is Mother's Day - Tang Men

Funny Moments during badminton

2008-12-17T18:50:00.000-08:00

Back from badminton..Actually suppose to meet with Munyee & Aimah too. But Aimah last minute not free and munyee cannot sweat..I thought min bro will come too but he wants to sleep. I also thought min will bring net but she say net lend bro's friend and never return..So in the end..only 3 playing. Haha! Jorene as usual always misses the shuttlecock but she made progress le..Manage to exchange continuously for a while..haha I'm no better la..Still using the wrong way to start..who cares so long the shuttlecock gets to the other side..Anyway while me n min playing, jorene went to find aimah ( we don't know she not coming le ) and she stepped into muddy water so she took off her shoes to dry in the glaring sun. After our game, we sat down to chat while waiting for her shoes to dry..Then the sweeper came and jorene said " 他会不会扫掉我的鞋？" So she anxiously turned to the guy and said " my shoe, my shoe " and we burst into laughter while the guy feels puzzled..He must think this girl crazy one..haha.Then we continued chatting and found our common fate..which is no job will kena mama everyday nag and force to sweep and mop floor because we no contribution..Haha =) Then jorene say " 不要被妈妈念，就离家出走啦！" n she laughs and said " 损友" Where got people say own self as bad influence de..She's so funny..Never a dull moment with her around!

I went outo with muar frens !!!

2008-12-16T18:33:00.001-08:00

Ok...Deep breaths..Relax..Yes! Do not be alarmed! Most of you would already know I went out of Yishun with my friends..Haha! =) I just wanna emphasized it again! Muncca & Shucca already wrote about the movie thing so I'll elaborate on what happened on our way to the movie..Mun yee was there at the mrt station first..I was there second..Muahaha!I walk there and I managed to grabbed the second place! Yeepee! Because I listening to music..I just walk blindly towards somewhere near the top up area..Then I realise got people stare at meI turned over and saw muncca..I totally could not recognise her..She was dressed in the OL series type and sitting there..I went over and chat for a while and our third winner came! Congrats Kimcca! As usual, kimcca wore sleeveless de..because she cannot tahan the hotness..But she brought jacket for the movie just in case it got too cold..Then we got bored and started guessing what shucca is gonna wear..Muncca said pink, I said yellow (ridiculous I know) and Kimcca guessed black and tada! She was right..Shucca came in black top and blue jeans. We went up and I afraid to follow muncca coz of the Harry Potter experience..But we got into the right train. haha! Reached and went to buy tickets first. Then Muncca say hungry so we go food junction..we three not hungry so sat down and chat while muncca go buy food. We chat aboout a lot of things..First we looked through the GV newsletter and read about twilight..I said bella beautiful and the Robert Pattinson handsome..then the topic shift to handsome guys..Shucca the Keanu reeves supporter while I change my stand to Superman..God! He is so hot!!!! Then they say I like muscular guys and one day I might fall in love with you-know-who...Impossible la! Then we talk about movies..Wait! Muncca came back with her food already.. Let's guess what she got. 1) Laksa 2) Mee pok 3) Tom Yam Noodle (Drum-rolls please!) She got No. 3! I was like..huh! you wanna eat this now..not scared later stomach pain..and she was like what!? Tom yam is the love my life..haha! (ps if u are bored of my story le..pls dun go yet..becoz its gonna end soon) Continuing from where I stopped, I asked whether they watched b4 Love Actually..& I got 3 NOs! OMG! That classic movie and none of them watch b4..Then I asked about Polar Express and I got 3 Nos again! Shucca asked me what is the movie about and after I told her the entire movie..I am so thirsty and she said " ok..now I know the movie plot, I can dun watch le " Cryz.. Watch la..its a nice movie! Muncca finished her noodles real fast and she's really good at shelling the prawn..Claps! Still not time for the movie yet so we walked around the cd shop..N all I hear from shucca is MC!!!! haha... ok Last thing..something I learnt from Bolt.." You just need confidence and believe to do anything you want to..We may be disillusioned sometimes, but when we snapped back to reality..we have to get back on our feet and live our life to the fullest again! "

Is this my longest post ever?

几米 Jimmy 的作品 2

2008-12-14T20:29:00.000-08:00

已经记不得坐在这翘翘板上方有多久了, 有点无聊有点寂寞有点迷惘....　只为了比你们更高一点, 只为了比你们更高一点, 更接近美丽的月亮一点, 我只好坚强的假装这样比较快乐比较棒,　风吹过好冷，屁股很痛，尿好急..

I've long forgotten for how long have I been sitting here..on the higher side of the seesaw.. It feels kinda boring, lonely and lost..It's all for the sake of being higher than others..nearer to the brilliant moon. I have to pretend that it all felt good and happy.. although, the wind is blowing and I feel cold, my bottom hurts and I need to pee!!!

I think this one no need interpretation..

几米 Jimmy 的作品

2008-12-13T20:12:00.000-08:00

The words are not very clear so I'll translate..Please read. If interested, visit his website, you will feel enriched.

The Rhinoceros wants me to turn left but the Elephant wants me to turn right;

The Crow wants me to advanced forward while the Scarab (beetle) wants me to tear;

The Angel wants me to be optimistic and the Devil wants me to be pessimistic;

It is always other's fault;

Everything is their fault...

My interpretation : In life, don't we always blame others for everything?

Sharing my artwork

2008-12-11T18:24:00.000-08:00

The following photos are pictures of my artwork during my primary school days!
My Pri 5 Art Folio..That time is thePowerpuff girls time!

My Pri 2 work..I did this with my mum!

Not done yet..but i like the futuristic look..

My art pieces when I was in the art club

The type when you pull up and down, you will get different scene

M y favourite
I think it's for competition or dunno what..I remember I spent the whole night doing it..
My Pri 4 artwork with my mama again

I wasted a lot of my sis silver marker..haha
Hey..I got an A for this ..haha!

Christmas Bonanza!

2008-12-09T22:10:00.000-08:00

Saturday, 13 December 2008, 7.30pm Harry Potter And the Prisoner of Azkaban

Sunday, 14 December 2008, 11.00pm Love Actually

Monday, 15 December 2008, 7.30pm Polar Express

Tuesday, 16 December 2008, 10.00pm In Her Shoes

Wednesday, 17 December 2008, 8.00pm Dr Seuss' The Cat in the Hat

Thursday, 18 December 2008, 10.00pm Christmas with the Kranks

Friday, 19 December 2008, 7.30pm The Santa Claus 2

Saturday, 20 December 2008, 6.45pm Ella Enchanted

Sunday, 21 December 2008, 7.oopm Bruce Almighty

Monday, 22 December 2008, 7.00pmEight Below

Tuesday, 23 December 2008, 7.00pm Ice Princess

Wednesday, 24 December 2008, 7.30pm Dr Seuss' How the Grinch Stole Christmas

Kaiho Sushi Restaurant !

2008-12-06T22:08:00.000-08:00

Taka x'mas tree

Salmon sashimi

Maki?

Cod

Tuna sashimi

Lobster Miso

Salmon Tempura

Lobster

Scallop sushi

Yesterday went to Cuppage Plaza for lunch with my sis and mama. First time go and we took taxi there. I cannot tahan mrt, will get motion sickness haiz.. Cuppage plaza is like a Jap plaza, mun n bei sure love it de, got jap ktv and loads of jap food there. That jap restaurant we went to was one of the best I've ever went to. The place is not very big but cosy and the ambience with the dim light n music were very nice, The chef n staff there very amiable.Except for the fact that there's a group of teens beside who were a little different from the calming environment. We don't own the place after all. Sis know the chef so no need menu and a few exchanges between them, our first dish is served! Omg! The scallop sushi was heavenly! That first bite was so blissful. Haha, don't know how to describe. Too bad got two dishes I forgot take pictures of, lobster tempura and sesame ice cream...Oh~ I'm growing so fat~ :)

Then went to takashimaya from the plaza by taxi again..coz we don't know how to get there and it was drizzling which later turned into a heavy rain. lucky.. We were in time for the meet-the- author session of the book "The Best I Could" by Mr Subhas Anandan...They colleagues so go support..Finally, took TRAIN to Toa Payoh and mama go the Orwell shop to complain about her bracelet which after an hour and a half she relented and bought another necklace which has magnet in it and supposedly able to absorb radiation from TV..I tested the the magnetism of the necklace on a whiteboard and it stick..Haha!

Okay..I know u guys very proud of me because I maybe the first time in my life travelled to so many places! haha. Another thing to mention is that the restaurant is really a good place to spend the day for any celebration..birthday, mother's day or anything.It's worth the money! Visit the website if u or your relatives interested..http://bernardtang.com/

If you ever wonder?

2008-12-03T19:26:00.000-08:00

I finished my second book le.." No Journey Too Tough " by Dr William Tan. Previously asked by Mr Anith to write about Singapore spirit thing de, then decided to write about Dr Tan and came to know about his first book..That day went to library and found it! This book may seem big and sort of thick but it mostly contains pictures of his races. This book is worth reading because if you ever wonder why should I do things that benefits others and not me and when I could simply let nature take its course without tiring myself? Is it worth it? After reading his book, it isn't the matter about worth it a not..it's about whether what you've done has allowed others to live better..Commiting yourself for the sake of others is something very noble and not many can do it..We may have qualms but let us at least try?

I stood bravely

2008-11-27T10:00:00.000-08:00

Ever since O's are over..I kept reminding myself to be mentally prepared for any fights, arguments or whatever between Papa & Mama, so that when it really comes, I won't let fear gripped me again! But, all is well until yesterday. He came home without slamming the door or the grill and I thought yet another fine day..He asked me to copy some camera stuffs and I did willingly. He went to bath and I was really glad to regain the peaceful atmosphere.Then he came out and hit the washing machine and shouted like a stupid t-rex. I was startled. Mama went to the kitchen and he scolded her for allowing the washing machine to drain out water while he is bathing & caused him to almost fal. Mama unwilling to tolerate his accuse and screamed back, reasoning with him, which is totally useless. When he is angry, it seems like his brain all the wires snapped and act like a lunatic..Because of my previous reminder on this kind of issue, this time I did not hide in my room, praying for the argument to stop or papa to go to sleep..I walked out and stood straight, staring at him with hatred in my eyes..Well, they din really mind me and continue as the argument get heated up, I screamed! I screamed something stupid but was what I really want. I said " 可以不要吵了吗！" and I stormed back into my room...This time they were startled and sort of stopped the argument. Backed in my room, the fear immediately came in and I sobbed. So stupid and cowardy! But I just couldn't stop..no, i couldn't. After a while, he actually called out to me and asked me NICELY if I had finish copying..He thought he could pretend nothing happen..I just replied NO. Then, sis came home. My family being really good actors and actresses pretend nothing happen because 3 ppl suffering is better than 4 huh? My eyes were a little swollen so I had to avoid my sis eye and I went to sleep right after the show..I slept for a while and woke up at 12plus & couldn't go back to sleep...

At least, this time I stood up bravely

I cut my hair SHORT!

2008-11-18T10:07:00.000-08:00

I cut my hair on Monday to about shoulder length..Longer than Shuying but shorter than Jojo, I guess..Also went to Yishun public library. There quite big n very cold and I wore our pe shorts there, which was a very wrong move..I wanted to borrow the "I Believe You" book by Low Kay Hwa but couldn't find it so I just browse around and I found this fascinating book..It's really a very engaging and interesting book, not story type one but about facts you never knew..

Something like " Do you know that 2200 match heads could be made from the amt of phosphorous in the average human body?"

OR Dreams last an average of only 20 secs each and we have 4 of then every night regardless we remember them a not..

& jokes too like " two drunks are walking along the road in London. O ne turns to the other and slurs,'Is this Wembley?' 'No it's thurdays.' ' So am I! Let's go for a drink.'

Hahaha.. ' A skeleton walks into a bar and orders a pint of beer and a mop'

Mini Movie Marathon !

2008-11-15T19:47:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went to uncle's house. I think I too long never take MRT le, so when we almost reach there, I felt like puking already. BUT (tan shu ying pls note) I saw this handsome Caucasian beside me, then felt better although his girlfriend sitting beside. Haha =) Reached my uncle's house and saw the Indian Restaurant. OMG! I finally got to eat the thosai masala! I think they must be thinking that this girl crazy one..see thosai so happy. They even have chapatti but I never eat coz 1 thosai enough le..='( Went upstairs amd Yes! Ah di is not at home and jesslyn is busy sending email to her friend so I am spared from their endless "harassment" Talking about her email..send one get well soon can send 1 hour de. Haiz..I tell her got ecard one then she say I stupid, dunno one la... I think when I primary 2 got pager already like wow..haha

Then my uncle came home..He say he got a lot movies and asked me want to watch a not..Well of course it's a YES! He has hua pi, kungfu panda, L change the world, connected and some others la..I want watch L de..but is at my cousin there( he lives next blk) and he say he lazy come over n I lazy go over, so..in the end I watched connected n kungfu panda.

Kungfu panda really nice n educational, not much of being funny but more of meaningful..Some lessons I learnt from the movie :

1) One often meet one's destiny on the road one takes to avoid it- Wu Gui

2) Don't care too much about the past and the future, focus instead on the present. As the saying goes " The past is history, the future is a mystery and today is a gift..That is why it is called present- Wu Gui

3) There is no secrat ingredient or recipe to somethign special..For something to be special, you just need to believe it is special. - Po's father

Finally, we took taxi home bec I am really gonna puke if I take mrt again and watched Inuyasha movie at home. Woohoo! Fell asleep immediately after that..Yawnz

2008-11-12T18:56:00.001-08:00

Make a Smilebox greeting

My Confession

2008-09-01T10:00:00.000-07:00

The entire weekend has been quite lively because my sister is at home. Totally! She din step out of the house for two whole days..It's been so long, maybe several months, I don't remember le..that she stayed with us for the weekend. I guess mama was happy 'bout that. At first, I was wary 'bout it because I thought she just going to leave some time later but I heard Mr S gone KL to attend wedding so she's going no where. It's great to have her around again but the feeling is weird..I want to make her laugh but It just felt awkward. Anyway, she suddenly asked me whether I miss her..It came too suddenly and I din know what to say, so I just laughed it off and said " haha..miss you for what?" But, actually I do. This was what I wanted to say to you that day..

Dear Sharon:

I missed the times when we watched movies together, we eat together, we watched dvds together, laugh together, lie on my bed to chat together, to waste time together, so many things we did together before. At first, I felt lonely, scared and grudging. However, I realised that you've changed. That's the fact. You've moved on and I cannot stay behind. I have to accept and I did. There is this saying " You are not the same person this year as last, neither are those we loved. But it is a happy chance that if we, a changing person , continue to love a changed person" This is what I want you to know..You have my support. I'll always be me, maybe less cheerful, less noisy. Although, mama is still having certain qualms 'bout it..you will have to embrace it because she's our mother afterall..

I know you will never get to see this but I still wanna try..

29 July '08 hmm~

2008-07-29T01:45:00.000-07:00

Today is Shu Ying's Birthday !!!! Miss Tan, you finally 16 years old le!!!! I also very very very GOOD friend right?? Na...Write big big for you

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (BIGGEST LIAO..)

Birthday 06-07-08

2008-07-06T19:17:00.000-07:00

It's about 11++pm last night as I laid on my bed, ready to go the dreamland. Then I have this thought in my mind..I'm turning 16 le.. I am growing up, second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day and year by year. Maybe its really time for me to grow up. But does this mean I can no longer be a kid in the house and indulge in my mother's protection. Am I really ready to be on my own sooner or later, facing the outside world? One day, my family is going to leave me and I'll have to be on your own, I know it; just unwilling to face it. I believe that every single one of you know that..but whose willing to face the fact that one day, your mum, dad, sister or brother is going to leave you? I know its old school to say this, but treasure your loved ones, be it friends or family, no matter you hate or dislike them, don't wait till the day when you never ever had a chance again and regret..

I love my mother, my father, my sister and my friends !

Okay, enough of the reflection part...Lets move on to the happy part of birthday! In the morning, went out to play badminton with munyee, jorene, simin & shuying(she was late..). Received my racket and I love it!!!!! The colour was nice, grip was comfortable and I scratched it...=( Haiz, never mind..It's only a matter of time.

Around three, my sister came home with the cake. It's a chocoloate banana cake from awfully chocolate. It's definitely delicious. Not too sweet with the slight bitter of choco and nice banana fillings!!!! WOOHOO~ . My sister gave me a Calvin Keith Jeans bag. My mum gave me a diamond "R" pendant and sensodyne toothpaste ( its quite expensive, I said I got sensitive teeth, so she bought,haha) and one facial cleanser ( this one actually is because I finished my cleanser le..so she 顺便 buy back..lol)

Yong Xiang gave me a pucca pencil box, it's so cute!!! I'm bringing it on monday!

I am so fortunate to have such best friends and family...=)

My mum drew this..so cute!!!! She has my talent.haha

She also bought soyjoy. The super cute commercial attracted ur but then the bar so expensive n taste okok nia..

Yong Xiang's gift

this is the 'R' pendant, not very clear My racket!

I din know racket can stand one.. thats my cake..my nick is lele the inside.. bag from my sis a clearer view..

Thats all.. Thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday and gave me presents!

Ignorance is bliss

2008-05-10T07:50:00.000-07:00

Just when I was relieved the exams are over...My nightmare came as quickly as my happiness goes.Perhaps, it's has always been like this. I am just disillusioned by my the temporary peace during the exam period. Why does it always have to be like this?During exams, I hope it would finish soon, but when it is over, I would die for it to continue. Contradicting, isn't it?

Reminiscing my past 030509

2008-05-08T23:18:00.000-07:00

01oooo

Became friends with the nine of u girls..Sat according to register number and Shuying became my first friend. We talked about CCA and since Sec 1 she loved badminton and would lend me her rackets if I want play too...

Recess, Bei er came to me, stretch out her hand and said " Hi, I'm Bei er, nice to meet you." I was glad she made the first move. Then we went on to Jieying and Kim lei.. The four of us became close friends.

Then, the Drama club. Me, bei er, mun yee, jojo, si min joined. Our first show! I still remember is the "I don't want study" and garbage thingy. Mun yee, still remember we had to pretend we are in a car and dance the super difficult steps...You still remember the step?? =)

We became closer...

Enterprise day.. Me, bei er, jieying and kim lei helped Mdm lung to tend the stall where we exhibit teachers photos..Still remember Ms Lai came in and said I just look around? The problem is you have to pay to look around mah!!!

That's all I can remember...Please help me if you still remember any meaningful events during our Sec 1 life. Email me the details. Thanks a million!

020000 will be post at a later date.

With love, Ruiling

RC excursion ! Here we go~

2008-03-25T16:45:00.000-07:00

Sunday went on a excursion organised by RC, together with mama, Jorene, Xiao Yan & her mum. First, we went to the Labrador Park. Omg! It's my first time going to a beach (sort of~ I see sea and sand= beach) haha! =) I can feel the sea breeze, very refreshing. If only I could go there everyday & relax! There's many armed police and soldiers over there, maybe because of the escaped terrorist. Spoil scenery but makes me feel safe & protected! Hurray to Singapore Armed Forces! Mama couldn't walk far because of her old aliment, but I'm still very happy that mama came. It's been a long time since I went out with my mum on excursion. Picked a few seashells, I'm overjoyed!

Next, we went to the Pasir Panjang Wholesale Market. There nothing to buy because it's a Sunday and never took pictures.

Lastly, we went to Har Par Villa! Yeah! I am 'hyperhappy' ! Took a lot pictures there...You will see that jorene is super cute! Even the nc me, lose out. Mama walked a while then feet pain..so she sat down with xiao yan's mum to rest. Me, jorene and xiao yan went on..Later xiao yan also tired, so the rest of the adventure was ventured by Jorene Columbus & Ruiling Raffles! Muahaha! After the one and a half hour venture inside.. we set off back home. I was totally exhausted and slept on the bus.

Anyway, one funny thing is that our tour guide was from YSS, same level..haha

Too many pictures to load. So if want see pictures..go this webby.
http://merrysympathy.multiply.com/photos/album/10

2008-02-19T01:20:00.001-08:00

*Chinese New Year Special Edition Slideshow *
"Every picture tells a story" Watch my slideshow & discover the story!

2008-01-19T11:43:00.000-08:00

* Few pictures took during the wedding, Never get to take with the weds..a little blur and could'nt get someone to take pics of my clothes so i use mirror. haha so stupid

2008-01-19T11:34:00.001-08:00

I interrupted this maintenance to bring you the SPECIAL EDITION of Prince Jeff and Princess Siew Siew Wedding ! ( *Clap!)

Yesterday was a very memorable and joyous event! Finally, the family's eldest grandson is getting married! All the uncles and aunts are grinning from ear to ear! Very happy instead. Let me just rewind the entire event and start when we set off.

5.50 PM. We left the house and headed for the bus stop. Waited for about 15 mins for the bus and Mamaleck was very impatient..The bus was like SO crowded, maybe because its OLs and the OGs getting off work.We reached Yishun MRT station and board the train to Marsiling. We reached Marsiling and alighted. We had to board the 'special bus' to get to Amara Hotel. Haiz.. Then we again waited for half an hour for somebody whose LATE! Stuck in the bus.

7.25 PM. The bus set off and it didn't move for long because of TRAFFIC CONGESTIONS. Bumping BUMPY bumping. Luckily I long expected this and prepared lots of songs in my phone to listen. Muahaha!

8.10 PM. Eventually, we reached Amara Hotel and all the bumping makes me feel nauseous..Luckily I haven eat yet..if not sure puke. Everyone was there already and we settled in..Oni was there too..At first, the whole family sit together then kept shifting and ended up sitting with little LingLing & boyboy.

8.25 PM. Nothing to do and still feel like puking..then yongkun lent me his PSP and played car racing. LingLing also want play then we share loh.

8.30 PM. Dinner commences when the two lovey doveys walk down the aisle. Played this beautiful and romantic song. So sweet! Then we started to EAT. Let me list down what I ate. haha! 1. Some red small octopus, norh hiang and slices of duck meat for appetizer. 2. 3 bowls of Shark fins 3. Scallops with veggie 4. Chicken with cashew nuts 5. Cod 6. Sea cucumber and abalone 7. fried noodles 8. Mango pudding for desserts

11 PM. Dinner is over and we went home by TAXI because we all don't want to cramped in the train or bus.

* Congrats to Jeff and Siew Siew * Wish the both of you..Eternal bliss

Acronyms : MamaLeck refers to my mother
OLs refer to office ladies
OGs refers to office gentlemen
Oni refers to my sis
LingLing is my cousin
BoyBoy also my cousin

* Maintenance will carry on after this entry

2007-12-08T23:23:00.000-08:00

NOTICE !*

* This blog will be under constructive maintenace until further notice. Please do not visit or tag this blog. Thank you for your understanding & cooperation.

- Ruiling

She is no longer she...

2007-11-29T17:44:00.000-08:00

I was sitting there, watching two strangers talk..She was putting on eye shadow then the blush.All that comes out from her mouth were he, his family and the company..I'm tired already.I do not wish to be understanding anymore! How could they always do that to me..Oblivious to my prescence, do things that break my heart..Change is inevitable but why did the direction of the wind blow towards the others..It never rain but it pours..Everything is misplaced. Please return to the original position..Was it he or she who caused this??? Am I really that unimportant to them or was I being pompous? I've been trying but now I speak no word..Subtle is my new being..I will only focus on what's unseen rather than seen..Meditate the void within me, I'll try.

The two strangers are my sister and mother..They have changed until I don't recognise them..Vanity is ugly! Is it really all about being rich??? HE will never be talk about AGAIN!

2007-11-22T00:05:00.000-08:00

I went to Chong Pang just now, with my mum. Rare~ I know it's very rare that I actually step out of the house. Haha. This was what my bebe always say. My mum went there to make a new denture while I wait impatiently..Haiz. Then, went toeat red bean soup. Finally!I get to eat it..I've been longing for it, because my mum doesn't cook it as she cannot eat bean related food.Nonsense right! Anyway, her new denture make her speak like a bucktooth..Well, at least I think so..

Just now also saw Shu Shu and her sis. But she never see me because I'm in the bus while she was walking outside.When I saw her, I very excited and bang the window! Haha..But she busy playing with her sis, like forcing her to drink the drink(rhyme) while her sis kept pushing her hand away..So good to have a little sis to play with~

Interesting Video!

2007-11-21T19:53:00.001-08:00

Interesting video here~ Three years old girl became the world's youngest singer.Her first album released in 2005.Cleopatra! Enjoy!

2007-11-18T20:39:00.000-08:00

MoViE of The DAY !

Smokin' Aces

This movie has a strong cast of Ben affleck, Alicia Keys, Ryan Reynolds & many more. It is categorise under M18- Coarse language & Violence. Believe me, this movie is really " M18". Through the whole screening, almost half the script are these words " f**k the hell", " motherf**ker", "suckc**k" and "asshole". You wouldn't understand what they are saying but you would see these words in every sentence..There are also some really obscene ans grisly and bloody scenes which I totally dislike! I suppose all guys will love this movie and somebody else~

Personal Recommendation : NO

BUSYbusyB.Z

2007-11-17T16:37:00.000-08:00

These few days, I'm like total busy! Not busy going out..Not busy doing homework..BUT busy watching tv! Not the square electronic box, but the different drama series and movies played in it! After the " Biscuit teacher and Star Candy ", I continued the drama marathon with " Hello! Miss" This show is quite funny but when it reaches the climax..it's totally unbearable to continue watching. Not because it's very sad or what..It's because the evil guys just succeed in what ever evil deeds they planned and the misunderstanding between the male and female leads just keep on growing like a snow ball rolling down the snowy slope! I kept pausing and cursing and swearing..Haha! In the end, it still came to a typical good ending and not surprisingly everyone turned good..However, there's a interesting character named Guo Manager who always made me laugh when He says ' Yes..yes..yes..' with the cute accent.

Earlier on, I also watch this London movie called " Hot Fuzz ". It's supposed to be funny but I don't really understand their jokes. Nevertheless, I loved this show because it's very thrilling. Murder case with horrifying scenes of people's head being chopped off and smashed like watermelon. Grisly man.. The next movie..I think it's quite old le bah..called "The 6th day" by Arnold Schwarzenegger. Another action, sci-fic and thriller type of show! I love it!

Going to continue with "Really Really love you" Yes~ Another k-drama

E most beautiful scenery of my life..

2007-11-09T19:12:00.000-08:00

I just saw a rainbow! ! ! The most beautiful, fabulous and incredible natural scenery! Some people might say it's very common and normal..BUT It's not! It actually take many perfect combinations to form a beautiful, round rainbow..Moreover, I saw this rainbow before the sky turned gloomy..Means there is moisture or water vapours in the air. So cool! I know I'm making a BIG fuss about it..But I just love it!

Cruise Virgo..Here I come!

2007-11-08T18:22:00.000-08:00

Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! We've been talking about and finally the plan was fixed and we decided to go cruising during the Chinese New Year's holiday! I know there's still some time before and 2008 hasn't even reached yet.But I'm still happy and excited. Being able to go out into the seas, enjoy the luxury of the majestic fleet.Oh my~ BUT, all the above has not been thoroughly planned becuase we haven't book the reservation la..I have about 60 percent that this trip will be finalised..hoho. One thing is that I really don't want my little COUSINS to go! They are my nightmare! The only hope of being able to relax is going to perished! Because if they were to tag along..I'm 100 percent sure that I'll turn into their nanny while the ADULTS happily enter the casino which I cannot enter..Underage problem~

Those were the happiest days of my life...

Read this very interesting story and decicded to blog it. You may have heard/read it before but read it again...

2007-11-08T10:00:00.000-08:00

NAIL IN THE FENCE
Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence.

(Most importantly the last sentence)

There once was a little boy who had a bad

temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails

and told him that every time he lost his

temper, he must hammer a nail into the back

of the fence. The first day the boy had

driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next

few weeks, as he learned to control his

anger, the number of nails hammered daily

gradually dwindled down. He discovered

it was easier to hold his temper than to

drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't

lose his temper at all. He told his father

about it and the father suggested that the

boy now pull out one nail for each day that

he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally

able to tell his father that all the nails

were gone. The father took his son by the

hand and led him to the fence He said, "You

have done well, my son, but look at the

holes in the fence. The fence will never be

the same. When you say things in anger,

they leave a scar just like this one. You

can put a knife in a man and draw it out.

It won't matter how many times you say I'm

sorry, the wound is still there. " A verbal

wound is as bad as a physical one.

Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They

make you smile and encourage you to succeed.

They lend an ear, they share words of praise

and they always want to open their hearts to us."

Please forgive me if I have ever left a hole.

RAINBOW colours

My Holiday ~

2007-11-07T09:03:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, finished watching " Which star are you from? ". Feeling kinda sad , because it's the end of something again.. Nevertheless, no ending , no beginning of a brand new chapter! Life moves on... " Which star are you from? " is the type of black humour, sweet & romantic and heartrending show..Quite nice and I enjoyed watching it. Actually, it sort of surprises me that I've watched three drama series since the start of holiday, or even before holiday. I've watched " Witch Yoo Hee " - very nice and funny, " Why Why Love " - very meaningful and romantic and " Which start are you from? " . Next, I'm going to watch the " Biscuit Teacher & Star Candy " I think it will be a nice show too ~

Ah~~ Enjoying my holiday life...( Except the fact that I have to go for tuition) HOhoHO

Yoz..It's me again

2007-10-31T21:03:00.000-07:00

Today, damn bored..so I did my usual stupid stuffs. Here are the products!

This is for my sugermuffin...Don't say I don't love u arh! Haha. Juz kidding. Anyway, people, we are not les..juz v good friends~

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Next is for me and my sister

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Super cool Optical illusions Video!

2007-10-25T22:20:00.000-07:00

My Lucky Star! / I'm Sorry

2007-10-22T23:33:00.000-07:00

Today's post will consist of two parts. (Anyway, yeeyee ask me to post words so here I am, haha =p.) First, my lucky star is finally here !!! Omg! Too happy le! You all must be wondering what this 'xiudo' girl is talking about, hahaha, don't tell u leh~~.
Just joking, actually for some people, it might be a very ordinary issue. However, not for the k-dramas lover! Yes, people, you're right! My lucky star is someone who could supply me with infinite amount of K-dramas cd to watch! This person will be blessed! This aunty actually is my sister's friend mother aka my mother's friend la..Long name but nevertheless it's still a veryvery good thing! Yeah!! Guys, don't bother to ask me out, because I'm glued to the television. Hohoho!

Next part of the post is very the sad..so must change the music to sad music and change tone. Erm! Here I go, we may all be in the first class, our IQ level would definitely be relatively above average, but i think our EQ level is even lower than a 3 years old child. Not trying to hurt anyone, but that's the truth. We go to school and tease people, give people names, and hurt their feelings by attacking shortcomings. We may say that we are not hurt, but we are. That is why we would retaliate and do the same thing. That's why this bad cycle just goes on and on...I am one of them. So, here I am, wanting to apologise to all those people I hurt and promise that I try not to hurt people's feeling even if I'm hurt! If you agree with me, please go and apologise to those you hurt and stop this cycle bah!

It's scratching time!

2007-10-20T00:42:00.000-07:00

Scratch the card with the coin and see what will reveal!

换换爱/ Why Why Love

2007-10-19T22:30:00.001-07:00

I've noted several phrases from the show that are very meaningful. Try to spend a few minutes to look through it and reflect it's meaning bah..

说三次，就代表是真的。。- rainie

我不会让自己有希望落空的机会。因为没有希望，所以没有失望。我不会消极，因为我没有权利那么做。- rainie

我必须相信自己可以，这样活着才不会累。-rainie

期待永远不会发生的事情，那样才累吧。 - rainie

我不想一直对着空中伸着手，期待谁来牵着我往前走，那只会一直原地等待。就握不紧拳头，就没有力气往前冲啦。- rainie

第十号男生，一心一意往前跑的时候，会忘记哪里受了伤。真的。-rainie

说太多次，就会像狼来了，听起来，全都是假话。-妍书

世界怎么可能因为痴心妄想而变得美丽呢？- rainie

爸爸是女儿心中的超人。就算不在身边，每个女儿，只要一想到爸爸，就会勇敢，就会有安全感。 - rainie

爱钱不可耻，胡乱花钱才可耻。省钱不可耻，伸手要钱才可耻。没钱不可耻，有钱不赚才可耻。 - rainie

看到你，就会有一种感觉，很轻松，公司的压力，家里的期望，好像都消失了。不知道为什么？ - kingone

只有被最喜欢的人伤害，才是最痛苦的。- 小南

不是每件事情，霍彦的判断一定都对，而我就一定错！难道相信我对你来说，真的那么困难吗？- mike

一块钱，俗俗的，没什么价值，不怎么显眼，却是一份希望。如果你没有经历过，从地上捡起一块钱的滋味，那你就不会懂一块钱的意义。- mike

我脑海中的橡皮擦，已经擦掉了我全部的幻想，连记忆也不想保留了。-rainie

第一次知道，他内心里，有这样被冰封的寒冷角落。- rainie

只有你心存怀疑的时候，才需要去查证。而相信，就是相信。 - kingone

钱是什么？只不是个工具，如果不能用来让我重视的人生活的有意义，就算再有钱，我也一样，觉得我很穷- mike

没有恶意，不代表就是做法正确的好意！- 小南

（遮着眼的嘉蒂说）我知道你是谁。不好玩。（恶少说）我并不是要让你猜我是谁。不需要用眼睛看，你还是知道我。因为，你感觉得到我。同样，你也听见了小南刚才所说的话。可是，你真正听得懂，那想表达的心意吗？还有你自己呢？你有没有听听，自己想要告诉自己的声音。

我来向你道谢，顺便向你祝贺。我是认真的。我真心的感谢你，横刀夺爱。委屈了你，一直扮演狐狸精。竟然是为了他。（小南男友说）江小南，你是来乱是不是？（小南回到）你并不认识我，请你不要打扰我和这位小姐讲话。我同时还要祝福你，早日清醒！

不要觉得自己是在出售没有感情的商品。也许你可以想一想，每一个客人向你购买的，以及你所卖给他们的。使他们人生故事里面的一份需要. - kingone

其实自私的小孩，过的会比较轻松。相反的，像嘉蒂那样，就过得很累。她什么事情都为别人想，想要照顾亲人，想要照顾朋友，什么都想不到自己。。。 - jia di's mother

你知不知道，不想放弃却又无能为力的感觉？你知不知道，一波又一波恶运来袭，像要把人击垮的感觉？- rainie

为什么要回去？也许。。是宝岛阿信的悲伤，感染了我。也许。。是嘉蒂的妈妈，那种亲切的对待。也许。。是因为看着病床上的秦阿姨，我也觉得心痛。也许。。一切都不是理由。 - mike

霍彦，我一直跟在你身后，想着，有一天，你会回头吗？还是，为我停下脚步。就像现在，你明明已经对我闪了红灯，表示禁止前进。但我还是要努力看看，即使是变成黄灯也好，至少，接下来还会有可能会变成绿灯的希望。- 妍书 to 霍彦

既然不能够牵手一起走，往后的路，我就自己走了。 - 妍书

带着不安的心情，恶少说，有很重要的话要告诉我，我将面对的会是一个承诺，还是一次退缩？- rainie

你知道自己被标价出售的感觉是什么吗？就是你必须在霍家尽一切的努力，把自己表现到最好，不容需有任何差错。因为人家买了你，你就应该值那个钱。我也很想像霍达一样，随心所欲，叛逆，不听话，调皮捣蛋，但是我没有哪个资格。我的人生好像是为了别人而活。那张支票，就像是巫师下的诅咒。。 - kingone

一个人，只有一颗心，也只能爱一个人。 - mike

我应该谢谢你，没有让我的可悲，继续演变成可笑。 - 妍书

爱人是辛苦的，被爱比较幸福哦！- 小南

因为我了解你，所以尊重你。而尊重就是给你最诚实的答案。 - kingone

这个世界上，没有不能破解，万无一失的密码。除非人心可以守得住，所以，不是妍书太单纯，而是她的密码，防不了你的心机太重. - mike

只要活着，只要勇敢向前，没有任何事，可以轻易毁掉你的人生 - rainie

霍达，就像包心菜一样，一层又一层的坏，可恶，缺点，却包着一颗很善良的心。 - rainie

把我从自怨自哀的泥糟中拉了出来。。- rainie

克服恐惧的最好方法，就是面对它。- mike

幸福会不会像摩天轮一样，转眼间就转完了。。 - rainie

以后，你看见的每一颗星星，都代表霍达说：“我爱你”。吹过你耳边的微风，就像霍达在说：“我想你”。照在你身上的温暖阳光，那是因为，我张开双手，在拥抱你。如果下雨了，那就是说霍达没有嘉蒂在身边，真的好寂寞。。 - mike

我不想要忘记你，也不想被你忘记。我不想彻底的消失在这个世界。我至少，要被记住，才能证明我曾经存在过。。 -mike

有一些话，不需要言语也可以沟通。因为他们用心在倾听着彼此的需要. - rainie

你对任何事物都可以说丢就丢吗？得到的时候，不是真心想要，所以丢掉了也不会觉得难过，是吗？-rainie

嘉蒂，霍达。你们像烟火一样，点亮了彼此的黑夜。我只要能分享到，你们的一点灿烂幸福就够了。祝福你们。 - kingone

烟火是短斩的，好像预言了你们的爱情。眼前的画面越幸福，仿佛就预告着，将成为你们最痛苦的回忆。- 妍书

我也不想放弃，可是老天却好像放弃了我。。 - mike

不必等到生活完美无瑕，才懂得去享受生命中的甜美。最亲近得家人，能够同心合一，彼此扶持，一起面对困难，那是最温暖的时刻。- rainie

I just realise that you people don't know how to appreciate meaningful things..Don't know how to be sincere and touched..all ur care are just the material things..the outward..the deceptive.It's so hard trying to live beside you guys..I'm so sick n tired of this..Whats my point of changing? What's the point trying to change and make a better me when people around me are not changing..Maybe, she's right.If I were to continue to live like this, being like this..I might as well be alone..Those people might know or might not know I'm talking about u..You might even not read this article..But, I don't care anymore..I'm too tired to care..Live the way you want, just don't include me in your 'life'! Nevertheless, this could be asking too much because even my family dieas the same things to me again and again..What else can I expect..

So, people, go on and criticise me, humiliate me and do your best to hurt me! Because I've given up hope le..

Created some kawaii ornaments!

2007-10-18T22:42:00.000-07:00

- Get Your Own

- Get Your Own

This is for Shuying!

- Get Your Own

This is for my Er Be..

- Get Your Own

Next! For my ahda ying

- Get Your Own

For yeeyee..

- Get Your Own

Panda..Biscuits your next!

- Get Your Own

Jin Hua..ur turn!

- Get Your Own

Poko ..coming!

- Get Your Own

Last but not least..leilei

- Get Your Own

Not forgetting Ah Xiang la~

- Get Your Own

My Artwork!

2007-10-15T22:46:00.001-07:00

K-Drama: Witch Yoo Hee

2007-10-15T21:32:00.001-07:00

Also known as: A Witch in Love / ma nyeo yoo hee (Witch Amusement)

Language: Korean

Subtitle: English (Hard-subbed)

Episodes: 16

Release Date: 2007

Genre: Comedy / Drama / Romance

Synopsis:

Ma Yoo-hee is the executive of an advertising company. She would never be caught dead wearing make-up and only ever wears black. Her hairstyle and glasses are severe, her only enjoyment in life appears to be the times when she's criticizing everything and anyone. All of her employees and co-workers fear her and she is constantly talked about when shes not around. Her stern and harsh nature has earned her the nickname 'witch' When it comes to romance she is hopeless. No matter how many blind dates she has, not one has ever led to a second. The reason for this is her negativity and her inability to loosen up and express herself. She however is completely oblivious of her faults and cannot comprehend why she is so bad when it comes to love.

Choi Mu-ryong is an aspiring chef with a passion for French cuisine. He has an innate ability when it comes to taste and perfection. Every piece of food and every plate he prepares must be perfect. However this tends to get him into a lot of trouble as when working in a kitchen every moment counts and there is not possibly enough time to take so much care in preparation and decoration of meals. His criticism of a head chefs cooking causes him to lose his job. His parents have never really approved of his aspirations and dreams to be a famous chef and insist he return to medical school. He decides to enroll back into medical school but changes his mind at the last minute and decides not to.

Mu-ryong discusses everything with his best friend and ends up going on a blind date to pretend to be someone else who backed out at the last minute. He declines at first since he already has a girlfriend, but his friend offers him money, and warns him however that the woman he will be meeting is rather different.

The woman he meets is Yoo-hee, and while under normal circumstances she would be rude, brash and boring, she tries to be nice and happy in an attempt to succeed on the date. However, her pretending is not very convincing and Mu-ryong figures that it would be a matter of time before she loses it. The date ends when Mu-ryong falls asleep for a moment, resulting in Yoo-hee throwing a glass of water at his face and calling him rude. He retorts back to her also, telling her to take care of her appearance the next time she goes on a blind date. The two then leave on bad terms.

While delivering food from his father's Chinese restaurant, Mu-ryong becomes involved in an car accident, coincidentally with Yoo-hee. They exchange insurance information and Yoo-hee learns that he lied to her on their date, realizing that his name is different, he is a year younger than her, and that he met her only as a favor to a friend.

Yoo-hee demands the money for the damage to her car to be paid within a week. However, Mu-ryong doesn't have any money, and yet Yoo-hee is unwilling to compromise with him. He decides to use his school tuition, which was given to him by his parents, to pay for her car. However, he loses the money after being mugged on the way to pay her.

Mu-ryong tells Yoo-hee he doesn't have the money but is willing to work it off, no matter how long it takes or what he must do for her to pay her back. Yoo-hee decides that Mu-ryong could repay her by working as her house keeper, since she continuously looses her previous keepers.

Meanwhile, Mu-ryong's girlfriend Seung-mi, who works at her father's restaurant, is expecting a new head chef: Johnny Kruger, a world renowned chef, who also happens to be Mu-ryong's idol and an acquaintance of Yoo-hee as well.

Starring:
Han Ga-in as Ma Yoo-hee
Jae Hee as Chae Moo-ryong
Kim Jeong-hoon as Yoo Joon-ha
Dennis O as Johnny Kruger
Jeon Hye-bin as Nam Seung-mi
Ahn Suk-hwan as Chae Byung-seo (Moo-ryong's father)
Song Ok-sook as Moo-ryong's mother
Jung Dong-il as Lee Tim-chang
Hwang Ji-hyun as Han Sae-ra (Yoo-hee's friend)
Byeon Hee-bong as Ma Yoon-hoon (Yoo-hee's father)
Jo Kye-hyeong as Chae Song-hwa (Moo-ryong's brother)
Jennifer Bae as Alison

Rating: 5 stars

Personal Note:
It's a must watch!

Watch the Preview:

Credits:
Synopsis: wikipedia

Preview: aquamarine88

Subtitles: B.O.N funsubs

Copyright : chinkymovies

Trust

2007-10-10T20:00:00.000-07:00

Just watch David Copperfield's Magic Show yesterday. He was amazing and very cool and very handsome!I wasted 1 hour watching this show.The word 'wasted' because I'm having exams the next day. haha! But, it was worth it. People have dream and his dream is to fly. He said" Some people have dreams but they don't do anything about it, and I'm worried that one day I'll become one of them..." Some choose to believe him but many were sceptical about him. I choose to believe him because what matters most is having trust and faith in each other. Enjoy....

Finding myself again...

2007-09-07T19:06:00.003-07:00

How I wish my life was simple again....

2007-08-11T00:29:00.000-07:00

I wish...I wish...I wish..for my life to be simple again. A month has passed since my last post and life is still same the for me...Who's the one who said happiness can be easy? Well, it's definitely not the case for me. Undesirable things just befall upon me like little droplets from the sky..How can I be happy when I always come face to face with unhappy things. Some are newly created problems while some are problems that clung onto me for years. This time, it's the latter. My family, I once thought, was a 21st century family. But, as I grew, my brain tells me that It still preserved some qualities of a stick-in-mud family. What I meant was that my family still insists on "Elders have a say..small ones keep quiet" slogan. I seriously abhor this tradition because in my house, the only person suffering from this, would be me! I tried to go it the rationale way, by having a chat on this issue, naively thought that they would change. But, I was wrong! All wrong. Then I realised that of course it would be wrong because this method itself is an irony to the tradition. Since small ones must keep quiet, whats makes you think that they would listen to the small ones? I'm going to list down all my sufferings..I don't care anymore! First, I must say that I'm already 15 years old, not a kid anymore. I talk sensibly! In my house, nobody listens to what I want to say.Whenever I wanted to say something, they would shoo me away like I'm a three year kid trying to babble nonsense.Ok, nvm. Prioritize, in any house, everyone must have an equal opportunity to speak.Normally, there would be two person trying to speak simultaneously.That's when prioritize comes. The problem is, in my house there's no fair prioritize. It's always the elder that gets to speak first even when what she's trying to say was gossiping about her office affairs..Still nvm. When asked for opinions, when someone was trying to be kind and offer some, she would be reprimanded for being bothersome.Fine! I shall give no comments! When something goes wrong or something is missing, guess who will be accused immediately?? haha, me! and don't bother even for explanation because it really doesn't help!But, what can I do? Nobody realises that they are wrong..what can I do??? Cry in my bed?? Nobody tries to understand me..When there's a quarrel going on in my house, lets guess again whose fault would it? Undoubtedly, me because I'm seen as the smallest and BRAINLESS! The elders always think that they are right and never admit wrong. So frustrating, if you were in my shoes. The next would be fairly common in every household, but when it adds on to my problems..It becomes very very unfavourable. It is unfair treatment. Needless to say, who will be favoured more? this time, its not me of course. The formidable Elder one. blahblahblah..I've heard enough of those..but ask you, if you were a mother of a lawyer and a ex-scholar from a neighbourhood school, who would you favour more? What can I say...but everyday I have to face this " you don't finish all hor..leave for your sister" and " you help her do this do that". It's not that I'm selfish..It's the heart for that person that matters..You will never see my mum saying something in my favour...u know the feeling of heartbreak? well..that's it. Nobody respect me too...whether in school or at home..did I caused this and its all destiny? This time round,it's revolution time! I will never compromise..even if it means not talking to each other forever...until..until they realise that they are wrong...really wrong!

(p.s. erm..I think i sound as if i would attempt suicide, but dun worry, i will not.haha)

Muar Birthday!

2007-07-07T00:10:00.001-07:00

Yeasterday, was officially the happiest day in my Secondary 3 life. My Birthday! Presents, birthday wishes, cake, I.C. making and many many more... They all played a part in making my birthday, a joyous one! =) Therefore, I'm here to show my appreciation to all my friends and family. What you are going to see below are highly comfidential. Please do not tell anyone else. It's between you and me. I repeat, U AND ME! heehee ~_~

Presenting..... The Majestic Family ( that's what I call them)

These are all presents I received from friends and family! Trust me, I love them all! Muax =D

Firstly, allow me to introduce you the first present. It's from my beloved Sister. She gave me three presents. Number #1 ~ The RipCurl bag ( can put a lot of things inside sia~), Number #2 ~ The Emily Strange wallet! and last but not least, a bag of FAMOUS Amos chocolate biscuits!( this one, she gave me on my birthday that day). Thank you!

Secondly, they are...presents from Jie ying, Kim Lei and Si min! They gave me two super cute toy ( it can be consider as toy bah..hehe) Present Number #1 ~ A super big size headed Winnie the Pooh with a super small body. So kawaii and don't mind me when u see me hugging it, and erm..jieying named it, the big headed yellow Yul.haha! It's simply irresistable. Number #2 ~ A samsoon pig mobile phone keychain! Olala. No need to say that I would love it! They knew I like the accessories in drama shows~ Ah..friends, they are! Thanks!

Thirdly, presents from the 哈韩 family! Jorene Choy Jin Hua! She gave me the very present that I've always wanted! Jieying, you should know what is it la~ It's the multi- funtional Green kettle! (fake kettle la..) It can serves as a radio, an amplifier, an alarm clock, a clock with date and finally a very beautiful ornament! Very useful hor..Just like jorene. Thanks!

Fourthly, sweet sweet present from sweet sweet JoJo! Hmm..I'm afraid, I've to go see dentist soon because Jojo gave me a bouquet of sweets! So Sweet of her...Design untill so kawaii. =) And also to prove that I did eat the lollipops, see pictures below~

Next, we have presents from my very own mother! She bought me sushi(s) which I forgot to take the picture of it and it quickly became a part of me. ohhoho~ There is also my birthday cake which she lied to me that there's none and drew one on the board for me. haha. My family really do have the comical sense in us.

Followed by present from Yong Xiang! He's the only MAN who gave me presents..Oh~ So touched ( but maybe if I didn't force him, he wouldn't go and buy...ahhaha) He bought me a very elegant musical box cum jewellery box. Wah....But if you think he so clever, know how to buy presents for girls? You are wrong! This present only christened after much calls from him and discussing and pestering and using of brainjuice. But, I'm still very happy with it and yong xiang, don't worry, I like your present and ur "card" a lot. Thanks! I have the three-sided view of the card.Muahaha

Next on air would be present from Mun yee! WowWOWwow! She gave me a extraordinary tissue box with a lot of japanese words and I don't know what it means. haha but It's no ordinary tissue box, it's a tissue box cum bearbear ornament and erm..不倒翁 (paiseh, don't what it is called in english). Oh yeah! I love 不倒翁! The unbeatable! Well, there's another distinctive thing that she gave me. It was sopmething out of the world! Superb! It's a super big poster of Kim john hoon. OMG! ( it's already on the wall) Thanks!

Last, but not least, It's present from Shuying! A very very unique present which I think not many of you know about it. It's one of the best. It's a cup that changes colour when hot water is puourd into it and I've seen the majestic view of it and took some pictures of it. Shuying, here' your chance to see if it works! It's actually a souvenir to commerate the Singapore stadium. How meaningful~

Now, a very big thank you to all who gave me presents and wished me happy birthday!

But, don't you think somethings is missing? Ooo Ya, Miss Ong BEE BEE, where's my present???

haha. =)

* and erm..pls do not take any of the pictures in my blog.thanks. *

Other miscellaneous pictures.

A bit blur~

Can you spot the difference? haha