It's another monday morning but I didn't expect HIM to be at home.I don't know why but I seriously don't like his presence in the house,it makes me so moody.Yesterday, i re watch "My lovely sam soon" and one of the scene was the female actress recollecting some happy memories she had with her father.It was so touching that it set me thinking "Do i have happy memories with HIM ?" The answer is I don't know. My memories with HIM were very scattered. I can't remember....But for now, i still don't know if i hate HIM or fear HIM.I hardly talk to him and i wish his could go on like this...He goes to work everyday and comes back late and I don't see HIM everyday.He goes on indulges himself and I live my life, he lives his....That was what I want but DOES this shows that I fear HIM? When he and mum were shouting in the living room...I used to get so scared and started trembling and dropping tears but now..NEVER! I'm not going to let HIM torture my mind and feelings again. Sometimes I really hate HIM but sometimes he cares about me. Arghhhhh! I hate this life...it's so absurd! || posted by Lenig