I got back my history paper, and I've gotten 21 instead of the usual unlucky 19.I wasn't happy at all because I find myself really useless when I could get full marks. I really don't like the feeling when I could do better but I didn't.I don't know how to....The English paper was given back too in the early afternoon and It really affect my mood.It swung 180 degrees.I was totally upset with it not because I failed or what but I did not do better than others.I think the "first" fever has really got me and I would get upset or jealous when I wasn't the best.I don't want this kind of me.I hate myself! Being the first isn't the best, in fact it's the worse thing that has happened on me....Why did I get first from the beginning???
I want to find the normal me back again, the normal girl with normal grades and normal family...
Just to add on, I've said it once or perhaps many times, I'm not wearing a wig! And thats thats!People..don't make me feel upset about this..I don't want to spoil everything...ok? || posted by Lenig