Ever since O's are over..I kept reminding myself to be mentally prepared for any fights, arguments or whatever between Papa & Mama, so that when it really comes, I won't let fear gripped me again! But, all is well until yesterday. He came home without slamming the door or the grill and I thought yet another fine day..He asked me to copy some camera stuffs and I did willingly. He went to bath and I was really glad to regain the peaceful atmosphere.Then he came out and hit the washing machine and shouted like a stupid t-rex. I was startled. Mama went to the kitchen and he scolded her for allowing the washing machine to drain out water while he is bathing & caused him to almost fal. Mama unwilling to tolerate his accuse and screamed back, reasoning with him, which is totally useless. When he is angry, it seems like his brain all the wires snapped and act like a lunatic..Because of my previous reminder on this kind of issue, this time I did not hide in my room, praying for the argument to stop or papa to go to sleep..I walked out and stood straight, staring at him with hatred in my eyes..Well, they din really mind me and continue as the argument get heated up, I screamed! I screamed something stupid but was what I really want. I said " 可以不要吵了吗！" and I stormed back into my room...This time they were startled and sort of stopped the argument. Backed in my room, the fear immediately came in and I sobbed. So stupid and cowardy! But I just couldn't stop..no, i couldn't. After a while, he actually called out to me and asked me NICELY if I had finish copying..He thought he could pretend nothing happen..I just replied NO. Then, sis came home. My family being really good actors and actresses pretend nothing happen because 3 ppl suffering is better than 4 huh? My eyes were a little swollen so I had to avoid my sis eye and I went to sleep right after the show..I slept for a while and woke up at 12plus & couldn't go back to sleep...

At least, this time I stood up bravely || posted by Lenig